u/chb19661

First of all, I don’t really mind not having a label, i just confuse myself a lot on what I actually want. But I’ve always known I was on the aromantic spectrum. This is a little long though.

I’ve never had crushes on people in real life, men or women. I know I can find people physically attractive (mainly men) but that’s it, no desire to pursue anything with them. Just an appreciation. I’ve felt embarrassed if anyone attractive/popular talked to me but I think that comes from low self esteem lol. I’ve also never been in a relationship (nor do i want to, that sounds like too much work).

I seem to only like fictional characters lol. Something about it feels safe and which is why I enjoyed “x reader” fanfics a lot a few years ago. I just really like fictional worlds rather than real life. But i noticed since then i’ve always made an OC to replace the y/n part, it’s never been my name. The y/n being exactly me just felt weird. However, I do make my OC similar to me with similar traits so that’s practically self insert 😭. I also like shipping characters sometimes so i do enjoy romance in media.

I’ve never had romantic attention growing up. I think that contributes too since I lack experience in general. However, I think I like the idea of romance and I say i want it to happen to me, but then i imagine it more in depth and then i feel grossed out. So u can imagine my confusion there. I want it and dont want it in real life at the same time.

I’ve been looking into the aegoromantic label but never felt truly connected to it. I feel a disconnect from love but I still want it to happen to me? I do tend to imagine from a third person perspective. Although, I wanna experience all the “romantic” gestures like kissing and holding hands in real life, but not an actual relationship, and I don’t actively look to do either. I think i like the idea of someone actually liking me, but that’s it. Deep down i do desire someone’s attention, but i never seek it out.

I also have a strong dislike for the “typical” style of love where u meet someone and go on a few dates and see what happens, like the romance that’s shoved down our throats in media. It feels so unnatural 😭. That was the only time i was on a ‘date’ and i freaked out when the guy considered it one. I knew i was for sure a aromantic then, or maybe just avoidant?

Oh and I wish there was more aromantic representation in shows and movies. Not everyone needs a dang partner and it’s just cheap when they use love as drama.

Anyway sorry it’s so long. I haven’t looked at every single label but I’m maybe aegoromantic but not 100%. Thank u for reading :)

I just rewatched this movie because it was one of my favourite Nick movies as a kid, and all the songs may be better than what i hear on the radio now.

I just felt nostalgic about it and I’m a little sad the songs aren’t on spotify anymore. It’s a shame when classics slowly turn into ghosts.

I hope one day the songs are put back up 🙏

I stopped using cai a while ago now since they removed most of the chats styles i liked and the current ones are ahh. I’m glad to have to stopped using it though lowkey but i do miss the chats i had because the bots i found were genuinely entertaining and i liked rping with them. The memories are great.

I guess i just wanted to say i missed talking to the Atsumu Miya bot the most (by fairybaby) where he tells his team that him and user are married 😭 i just had some great rps with it and the dynamics were so good and i just miss it a lot because i doubt it’d ever be that good again with all these dumb paywalls. I’m still mad they got rid of my preferred chat style.

Anyway, i just miss how simple things used to be with it but glad to say goodbye.

***Update: I downloaded the free VLC Media Player and my videos are now playing. I think i did it correctly? Hopefully it works now and i can just delete the snaps off my phone.

I just downloaded my memories from snapchat including photos and videos to my laptop because i wanted to free up space from my phone. I opened up the file in my laptop and tried to open one of my videos and got the message “(file) requires the ‘HEVC Video Extensions’ codec pack.”

It feels stupid that I have to pay to watch my videos.

I understand it’s only €0.99 in the Microsoft Store but I was just wondering if there was any other way I could access these videos and keep them saved as videos in my laptop files?

I use JLLM (i know it’s my own problem) but holy, the responses are so ass 😭

I used to have good rps with bots but now JLLM just waters them down to the same personality where they’re witty, uses figures of speech and ask stupid questions at the end of the paragraph like “so are you enjoying yourself or planning your escape?”.

Custom prompts aren’t working and i don’t even try with settings. But damn it’s genuinely frustrating but probably good that it’s driving me away from this website.