u/confusedbibliophile

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This is very frustrating and I really don't know why it's like that. I don't have a very good relationship with my father or mother both but I don't really argue a lot. I am good in studies and everything but the only problem is that I am fat. Yes, I am around 88kgs at 5'5 and yes it is very overweight for my age of 24 and height as well but I am working towards losing the weight.

My mother and neighbouring aunties have made it very clear that I am fat and okay, I can't really fight with aunties much because who cares but every conversation with my mother is about my weight or why I couldn't secure a campus placement. My college is a tier 1 NIT and I am preparing for bank PO because I felt that I couldn't do DSA or those marketing roles or teaching and I just feel happy doing this and I'm quite sure I'll crack it but next year not this year as I haven't prepared well this time.

My father is also the same but he lives abroad so usually I speak to him on calls. Literally the only thing they care about is my weight and that is the only topic being discussed. They literally say to me "bhookhe raho chahe kuch bhi karo lekin weight kam karo". Well I am trying but it isn't easy for me but these type of comments are so weird like??? They don't care whether I'm depressed, having a bad day, going through interview rejections, sick, or just not able to cope. All they care about is my weight. My younger brother is coddled like a baby and he is fat as well. They just say "ladka hai chal jayega, ladkiyan acchi nahi lagti bilkul moti hoke". At this point, I just can't with their mindset honestly I'm so done living with them and I will move out with a friend to a different city to prepare better for my exam.

So a little bit of background about me - I have always been a great student (scored 94% in 10th, 91% in 12th, 98.5%ile in JEE). I got into a tier 1 NIT but I couldn't perform well there as I got really depressed and went through a bad breakup. During my JEE preparation days, I gained a lot of weight due to sitting and I am still struggling to lose it even today. I have completed my course but I couldn't secure a placement because I got a backlog in one of my subjects in my 7th semester. I wrote the exam really well I swear but I didn't have a good relationship with the professor you can say. He liked to pick on me a lot and made fun of me.

I lost a lot of my focus and my CGPA was ruined basically. Since I couldn't get placed, my parents have advised me to try for government jobs but some days they make me feel like crap. They have often taunted me by saying "You're so fat and ugly who will hire you?", "You won't put in any work but you expect things to go your way each time". That's not true because I worked my butt off for placements and all but this year has let me down many times. I appeared for 4-5 interviews and got rejected at the very last round.

I have a boyfriend and he is supportive 95% of the time but sometimes whenever he gets angry or something he loses his temper too. I have heard things like "Your dad probably paid money so you could perform well in JEE", "You aren't anything but act so conceited". I don't even understand what to do. I am currently preparing for banking and railway exams which I had decided on my own and I thought that I will turn my life around anyhow by myself. I will get fitter and I will definitely excel in my career. Sometimes hearing these taunts from my parents and my boyfriend really demotivate me so sometimes I'll just cry alone and get back to work after some time. I try to tell myself that everything will be worth it in the end and that I will surely make myself proud.

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So I am currently vacating my hostel and I told my boyfriend I would need around 3-4 days to vacate the room entirely. He told me that last year (he is my senior) that he vacated his room in only 3 hours. He said that I am taking too much time, but honestly, I hate being rushed or being under pressure. I have moved out in one day as well but I feel like I tend to forget a lot of stuff so I prefer to take some time and rest in between. I also have a dust allergy so whenever I take out my bags, there is a later of dust on it which causes a lot of sneezing for me. I need a little rest after some work. I prefer doing things bit by bit instead of one day. He told me that I am lazy.

There is also another problem that our mess isn't operating as well so I have to order food at least twice a day. This makes me tired too as we have to collect it from our main gate and it's a little far.

Are my feelings valid or am I really lazy?