u/confusedtanuki

So, i always hear everyone say that "you are one of the two Nanas", but as we all know, even if they are the two heroines, they aren't the only female characters in the series.
I always liked both Nanas but i never really felt like i related that much to them - i never felt like they quite "clicked" with my own experience.
The character that really stuck with me was Reira, and i felt so shocked reading her story because all her struggles about feeling empty, trapped, being emotionally stunted to some degree and feeling like she's useless without her talents are things i greatly relate to... one thing that also hit me is how she described love as "trust" and i remember, talking about what love is with one of my acquaintance in the past, i gave them the same exact answer and reasoning as Reira did to Shin when he asked her. When i feel sad, i always end up thinking about how if i wasn't able to draw or show my creative talents in general, nobody would appreciate me as a human being...

There are also other great characters, all with their strengths and flaws, such as Myu, Yuri, Misato, Shion... while i do believe that lots of people are gonna relate the most to Nana O. Or Nana K. (As they are the characters who, for obvious reasons, get the most in-depth exploration) I was wondering if anyone else felt like another female character in the series represented them better!

So there's this thing that's bothering me - most people experience dysmorphia as a "sometimes i feel good, sometimes i feel really bad" type of thing. Like they look into the mirror and are able to, sometimes, see a "good" version of themselves. I can't, i always see (logically) the same face staring back at me in the mirror and it's a disgusting one. The only days i feel good is when i don't look or think about my appearance at all. But at the same time, i also do not recognize myself, because until a year/year and a half ago i used to look completely different. People tell me this too, and i can absolutely see it when i compare the pictures. I used to be normal and like myself back then .... Now i'm completely messed up and there are no days when i can even be mistook for the "me" i used to be. It shouldn't even be aging, it happened too quickly and i'm only 26. Is there anyone else that feels like this? Like they always look bad and there's no day off from it ...

How do i stop feeling like this? I feel like doing something to my face is the only way to get better. I'm getting worse by the day, i look at pics of me a few months ago and i can already see a difference. I'm only 26 and i feel like i've gotten unrecognizable from how i looked a few years ago (people tell me this too...) and looking at the mirror is making me feel, you know. Like doing that thing. I think about getting something done but i always hesitate because i don't want to have to get to that point but i feel like there is no other way for someone like me. How do i stop feeling like this? My mind can't stop telling me to book the freaking appointment but i'm also so scared. If i don't do something i'm going insane though (i'm already seeing a psychiatrist btw)