u/cryingincalifornia

Hi everyone I love reading everyone’s posts but it’s time I make a post myself because I am struggling.
I am among the ones that got completely wrecked by 7-oh. It’s wrecked me so bad I’m filing bankruptcy and I barely make it to payday so I have to ubereats or I don’t eat. It’s completely ruined me. I recently moved to Oregon last year and I don’t know anyone. I really want to start getting involved in the recovery community and meet people that want to start sober and do outdoor sober activities with and just honestly make some healthy sober friends.
I’m not sure where to begin. I’ve been to meetings before but I mostly just sit there and listen to everyone speak and not really meet anyone. The isolation is the reason I keep relapsing. I isolate and become bored so then I relapse and go hang out at the coast by myself all day because well things are better when you’re high.
I’m not in a place to go to rehab so please don’t suggest that. But any suggestions would be great.

I keep reading conflicting things. It’s all going to be gone August 1st?

Hi everyone! Can you share with me your apartment rental experiences after filing? I am planning on filing soon & I already have an apartment, but I am just wondering how hard (or easy) it’s been for you to move into a new apartment after filing.

Hello everyone, this is my first time coming to this forum or even posting on here but I’m not sure where else to go or who to go to!

So I am 32 years old and I live on the west coast. A couple nights ago, I had a dream about my first boyfriend from 5th-6th grade. We have not spoken to each other at least a decade or more. I have not even thought about him. My best friend from that time was also in that dream who I have not spoken to either in at least a decade or more. But this dream made me sit straight up & wake up immediately and my first thoughts were I need to check on them. I looked up the best friend on Facebook & found her immediately and added her. She accepted it and messaged me saying she missed me and has been looking for me on social media but couldn’t find me. I told her about my dream & then asked her about the first boyfriend (we all would hang out) and unfortunately he is in prison. She told me though however a few months ago they had talked about me and had wondered how I was doing so if I wanted to reach out to him, she would give him my phone number next time he called her. She also told me about a system where you can message inmates so I could do it that way.
Something inside of me was still determined to reach out to him for a reason I’m not sure of. So I go to work yesterday with it in the back of mind and come home and go to sleep.
This morning I get a Facebook message from his mother. She told me he asked her to find me on Facebook and get my phone number to him. I was absolutely shocked. I texted my friend and asked if she had talked to him and she said no and I told her his mom messaged me and she was also shocked. I mean this is literally the next day.
Of course I give my phone number to his mom and he calls me a couple hours later and I tell him what happened about my dream & how I was literally trying to talk to him yesterday and he told me that he has been thinking of me the last week and has been trying to get in touch with me.
Absolutely shocking. Unfortunately he tells me he has been sentenced 30 years BUT he is trying to get accepted into a two year program where after he completes the program he would come home and just be on parole for life.
His charges aren’t anything violent. He is a recovering addict that made some bad choices but he did not hurt anyone, animals, or children. I’m also a recovering addict with six years clean and doing very well. I’ve been struggling with kratom but I am no longer taking it and trying to get better.
Anyways, what is actually going on here? Is this just a crazy coincidence? I’m trying not to let my mind wander or hype myself up but I’m just trying to understand this.
Any feedback or thoughts is GREATLY appreciated!

Hello everyone, this is my first time coming to this forum or even posting on here but I’m not sure where else to go or who to go to!

So I am 32 years old and I live on the west coast. A couple nights ago, I had a dream about my first boyfriend from 5th-6th grade. We have not spoken to each other at least a decade or more. I have not even thought about him. My best friend from that time was also in that dream who I have not spoken to either in at least a decade or more. But this dream made me sit straight up & wake up immediately and my first thoughts were I need to check on them. I looked up the best friend on Facebook & found her immediately and added her. She accepted it and messaged me saying she missed me and has been looking for me on social media but couldn’t find me. I told her about my dream & then asked her about the first boyfriend (we all would hang out) and unfortunately he is in prison. She told me though however a few months ago they had talked about me and had wondered how I was doing so if I wanted to reach out to him, she would give him my phone number next time he called her. She also told me about a system where you can message inmates so I could do it that way.
Something inside of me was still determined to reach out to him for a reason I’m not sure of. So I go to work yesterday with it in the back of mind and come home and go to sleep.
This morning I get a Facebook message from his mother. She told me he asked her to find me on Facebook and get my phone number to him. I was absolutely shocked. I texted my friend and asked if she had talked to him and she said no and I told her his mom messaged me and she was also shocked. I mean this is literally the next day.
Of course I give my phone number to his mom and he calls me a couple hours later and I tell him what happened about my dream & how I was literally trying to talk to him yesterday and he told me that he has been thinking of me the last week and has been trying to get in touch with me.
Absolutely shocking. Unfortunately he tells me he has been sentenced 30 years BUT he is trying to get accepted into a two year program where after he completes the program he would come home and just be on parole for life.
His charges aren’t anything violent. He is a recovering addict that made some bad choices but he did not hurt anyone, animals, or children. I’m also a recovering addict with six years clean and doing very well. I’ve been struggling with kratom but I am no longer taking it and trying to get better.
Anyways, what is actually going on here? Is this just a crazy coincidence? I’m trying not to let my mind wander or hype myself up but I’m just trying to understand this.
Any feedback or thoughts is GREATLY appreciated!

I see ALOT of people say they only took gabapentin or just gabapentin and clonidine. What does the gabapentin actually assist with? How do you deal with the chills and sweats if you’re only taking gabapentin?

Hello, I am getting my Wellbutrin prescription tomorrow (I thought yesterday was my doc appointment) and I already have gabapentin and clonidine and subs.
But I am getting kratom to fight that habitual urge of dosing every two hours at least for a now until I can get a full week clean god damnit. I haven’t been a full week clean for almost two years. Absolutely insane and so sad.
But are yall taking the kratom as powder or capsules? I use to drink it but the thought of drinking it now makes me gag.
Thanks yall!!

Hello everyone I have an appointment with my doctor later today and I am thinking about asking him to prescribe me Wellbutrin since I’ve gotten positive replies about it. But I wanted to hear from more people. How did you start taking it? How long did you wait to be clean to start taking it? Can I start it right away? And also how did it help with paws?
Thanks so much advance!

Hey everyone I’ll try to make this short.
Basically I got through the absolutely horrible withdrawals but I am as depressed as I’ve EVER been. I pick up my gabapentin refill tomorrow so I’m hoping that helps. I already burned through my Adderall so I could survive at work and I don’t get my refill until the 26th.
I’ve been working two jobs (70-80 hours a week) to pay all the debt I’ve accumulated and to get ahead of bills from this addiction. Honestly just considering filing bankruptcy in November and starting over and actually start saving for a house.
But I am exhausted and depressed. It’s hard to even brush my teeth and shower. Keep my apartment clean. It’s hard to do anything. On top of feeling like a loser. I have such a long list of shit I need to do to get my life together and my peace back I can’t even enjoy the present moment. I cannot believe I fucked up so bad.
On top of that I live alone. I don’t know anyone where I’ve moved to. I’ve considered going to meetings but I’m so exhausted from working two jobs. On my days off I would go hiking and camping I’m very outdoorsy, I live on the west coast. Recently on my days off I sleep until noon and then scroll tik tok until evening. It’s horrible.
It’s crazy to me that I used to wake up at 5am go the gym, shower & get ready, and go to work.
So it’s definitely hard day to day when I’ve taken 7 everyday for two years and now I don’t take anything.
I know it’s risky to take kratom powder but what am I supposed to do? Would it help get me through this first couple of months?
I’ve also considered anti-depressants. Has anyone started them? Has it helped?

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Hello everyone,
I am really struggling. I’ve been on subs for a week now but man the depression and anxiety is real. I’m so behind financially because of this addiction. I’m working two jobs and when I get paid Friday my money is basically gone for another week. My credit score that I worked so hard on is low because of late payments, I’m exhausted from working two jobs but like I absolutely have to, I barely spend time with my cats because of how exhausted I am. It’s just going to be a long road ahead of me. I feel so much guilt and shame it just adds to the depression. I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore and I’m barely hanging on.
On the free time I do have, should I start attending meetings? Get back into my interests? I just have no idea what to do. This stupid shit has basically ruined my life and my peace of mind and I’m climbing myself out of it.

I did it. I fucking did it. I can’t even believe it. Yes I used suboxone but I don’t even fucking care I dont! I’m here in Hawaii as a solo traveler and it feels so good to not plan my whole day on where the closest smoke shops are and budgeting what little money I have leftover due to spending it on all this shit. Also I’m just hippy-ing it out here, I rented a jeep wrangler and that’s it! As a female sometimes I get sketched out being by myself but I’m also very passionate and can put up a good fight. Anyways the last few days I’ve been hiking, swimming, soaking in vitamin d. When I get home I have so many problems to deal with due to results of this addiction. But that’s ok. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking since I’ve been out here and preparing myself for when I get back home. I’m ready to put a horrible break-up behind me, I’m ready to confront the pain, and I’m ready to move on with my life from this shit. I’m an avid hiker and I haven’t done one hike in over a year due to this shit so it has felt so good to hike again. I did have to buy a vape so I went to a vape store in Oahu and this store had a HUGE wall of all pseudo. I was tempted but honestly I don’t even like pseudo and it’s just not worth it. One time is never enough. Ever. Anyways I just wanted to share my 8 days clean because it has been so hard for me to stop. I hope everyone is having a blessed day!

This is not the first time I’ve seen this and I’m positive this will be happening more. So sad. I always said smoke shops are the pill mills.

He is normally a 7 user but he took 480mg of just pseudo yesterday. He’s been texting me freaking out this morning his whole body can’t stop moving and he’s sweating. The last time he took 7 was two days ago and he said it’s been 13 hours since he last took a whole three pack of 240mg of pseudo. Is he safe to induce subs if he used them one day?

So yesterday I posted I took 210mg of 7 at 930 at night then at 2pm I took 8mg of u know what. 20 minutes later I was sweating and shaking and feeling so weird so I took 210mg to pull me out and then another 210mg 2 hours later because I’m weak. Anyways I took a clonidine at 6pm and then another at 12am along with 200mg of gabapentin. I slept all night and I woke up with no withdrawals. A little foggy mentally but not withdrawals. So I took 4mg of u know what. Why didn’t I wake up with any withdrawals????? The last 7 I took was at 430pm yesterday I’m 5 hours away from 24 hours.

Honestly I’m so sick of my day to day reality with this fucking stupid bullshit. I haven’t been able to live my life in months, save any money, do anything. ANYTHING. I am such a pussy when it comes to withdrawals. I went into precip today so I spent another $30 to pull me out (210mg) and the same fucking cycle just repeats. I still have the medication I took that sent me into precip, adderral, gabapentin, clonidine. WHAT IS IT GOING TO TAKE? 😭😭😭😂

I took my last dose at 9:30pm and then I induced 8mg at 2pm. And i started sweating and shaking and just felt so uncomfortable and weird. So I took 210mg like five minutes ago hoping it’ll pull me out so I can go back to work. What’s the move from here on out? I literally cannot spend anymore money on this I have to quit today.