u/cryptic_gentleman

After dealing with years of my parents' enmeshment I finally took the steps to move out and live on my own! They obviously weren't happy, especially since it would partly mean having to drop out of school for a little while, but it honestly feels so freeing knowing I'll have my own place and a decent job in just a few weeks.

Ok, sorry if I'm posting too much but this is kind of just how I process things so just please gently let me know if I need to stop. Anyways, I, the host, am one of two members in this co-conscious system and I typically always have full front. The other member, Little One, has really only made himself known to me a few days ago and I don't really remember the timeline. I initially thought this was a strange form of coping-based age regression because Little One is around 4m while I'm 21m. Then, as it appeared that he and I shared consciousness rather than him just being a "mood", I began thinking he was a part in IFS. However, he was far too distinct and honestly different from me to be a part of me. I know it's only been a few days since meeting him but we have genuinely bonded I think and I have kind of learned his sleeping patterns, his interests, and his insecurities to some extent. He even tried to comfort me in the same way he had previously asked to be comforted which honestly made me melt. Whatever we are I hope he always feels welcome and loved, even when he gets upset every once in a while :)

Sorry if I didn't use the right flair. Wasn't sure which one fit this post.

I'm mainly asking because I sort of just want to figure out what I am. Basically I, the host, have noticed that my possible system consists of just me and one other member. This other member has really only presented himself over the past couple of days but has already communicated pretty clearly who he is. Our stream of consciousness is basically completely one but he never becomes the host. I'm not sure if he doesn't want to become the host because of who he is, being shy and insecure, or if it's just a different avenue of pluralism. I'm honestly not even sure if this is pluralism or just intense IFS but he's just so consistent and separate from me that he honestly doesn't feel attached to me like I would think an IFS part would.

The main part right now, I call him "little me", got upset today because I was thinking about how tired I am emotionally and I began to think it was because of him. I soon realized that it's actually because of my OCD obsessing over him and not him directly. I was able to soothe him with a fruit cup he had previously pointed out and a toy car he wanted and he soon fell asleep feeling happy. Does anyone else use actual physical things, such as a toy in my case because little me is around 4, to interact with your part? It works well for me but I also feel a little silly because people looking from the outside have no idea what I'm doing.

Recently, within only the last couple of days, I have essentially met who I believe to be a part? I'm 21m but I met little me (I honestly don't know what to call him) who's 4m and he's so innocently wonderful. I don't really have any experience with IFS at all so sorry if I don't make sense or if it's not relatable but it's like his thoughts are combined with mine, like his consciousness blends with mine and I can feel his emotions in my chest. I still don't know much about him since it's only been a few days but I am already noticing him communicating in mental pictures and I was just wondering what other's experiences were like or if what I'm experiencing is even IFS. For context, I belief he emerged because I just recently began recovering from MDD and had stuff early in childhood that honestly prevented me from having a full and lively childhood experience.

Does anyone else feel that their little persona is more of an extension of themselves rather than someone taking over? I don't really know how to explain it other than I myself am never fully a little but instead have a part of me (or like a second consciousness inside of me) that is present alongside of me and interacts with me, telling me he wants to play or nap or hold my hand. Little me is around 4 years old and he communicates mainly through mental images. I've let him take over once or twice and he seems to love it but he also understands that he can't just take control whenever he wants. I don't know if this is considered normal agere but I just wanted to share and ask if anyone else has a similar experience with little them.

I, 21M, hadn't really consciously explored age regression but I remember kind of just wandering into it subconsciously in my early teen years. Anyways, I came across this community a day or so ago and, since then, it's like I've entered heaven. I just feel like I've had so much happen in my life but, for the first time in I don't even know how long, I felt genuine excitement to the point I could hardly sit still because I am allowing myself to go buy some toy cars and playmobil soon! I'm probably going on too much about it but I'm just genuinely so excited to just lay on the floor and play with my toys for the first time! :D