u/dertotalenkrieg_

I’ve (19m) cheated on my boyfriend (18m) more times than I can count. We both have BPD, with him having PPD and me having NPD. That’s an important note. I’ve been on many Grindr dates for sex and emotional cheating and such, and I’ve been in several online relationships whilst dating my boyfriend. He only knows of two of the online instances.

Today, he found out about a woman I had a relationship with over text. This relationship occurred during a psychotic episode, and went on for many days; the two of us having amassed around 6k messages total.

There is so much to this story, and I’m having lots of trouble with feeling „sorry for myself“ and whatnot, so bear with me.

I’m currently on vacation at my boyfriend’s house. I’m scheduled to leave around the beginning of August, and I’ve been here since early June. I live on the opposite side of the country. Should I be going home? He’s humiliating me in a way that is very hard to handle due to my narcissistic symptoms (see attached image) and he has been saying this sort of thing to friends in DMs as well. I’m logged into his Twitter and he told me that „it doesn’t matter if [I] read [his] messages“… it’s just a bunch of him being rude to me behind my back. I’ve read it all, and he’s calling me a loser and a coward for wanting to separate myself from his angry friends that he brought over.

I really don’t know what to do. Should I be leaving him? I’m so emotionally attached due to the BPD, and yet I’m so humiliated and angry because of the NPD.

Any advice will help. Thank you guys.

Hi. I‘m Dirk/Bro Strider (source: Homestuck) irl and my boyfriend (former Dave Strider irl) doesn’t accept me.

He refers to me as psychotic and having psychotic episodes when my actual preferred appearance/personality comes out. The rest of the time, when I’m suppressing my interests and style, he thinks I‘m normal. It’s actually the reverse.

So. Some backstory. I’ve kinned/indentified as Bro Strider for over a year now. I’ve been dating my boyfriend for a bit longer. He used to be a Dave Strider kin, and still is, just not as outwardly and devotedly as before. He had an experience with a Dirk Strider kin that left him very anxious about Homestuck as a whole. (For reference, Dirk and Dave are teenaged brothers, and Bro is an older version of Dirk from another universe, all within the source.)

It has been around 14 months since he broke up with that Dirk kin, and is now comfortable with talking about the ex. He has been for a while. He’s able to separate the actions of the Dirk kin from the actual source character and media. However.

He very recently told me that he’s no longer afraid of his ex or Dirk Strider in general, but that the fear has transferred to my „psychotic episodes“. I do not have a psychosis diagnosis, nor have I any diagnosis that has psychosis as a obvious symptom.

What should I do? Opinions?

Two examples of my characters in a cartoon style vs an anime style. Done digitally is Marshall, and on the lined paper is Joanie. All art has been done by me.

I’ve been trying to solidify my art style, and I can’t really get away with saying „I’m kind of a beginner“ or „I’m a kid“ because I am neither (no hate or disdain for those who are). I feel like I can’t switch up anymore, but that’s a whole other issue. I’ve been trying to start up comms again, and I want to just pick one!!!

I would love for you guys to give me some feedback on which style you like. Even if your answer is that both work, please do tell me which is more visually pleasing as well. Thank you!!!

Two examples of my characters in a cartoon style vs an anime style. Done digitally is Marshall, and on the lined paper is Joanie. All art has been done by me.

I’ve been trying to solidify my art style, and I can’t really get away with saying „I’m kind of a beginner“ or „I’m a kid“ because I am neither (no hate or disdain for those who are). I feel like I can’t switch up anymore, but that’s a whole other issue. I’ve been trying to start up comms again, and I want to just pick one!!!

I would love for you guys to give me some feedback on which style you like. Even if your answer is that both work, please do tell me which is more visually pleasing as well. Thank you!!!

Edit: There are only two styles shown in this post. Anime style (slide 1, and slide 3 on the right) and cartoon style (slide 2, and slide 3 on the left)

I‘m 19, and 1 month on T. Above is me with my hair styled back, and then with my hair in my face. Do I pass either way? I’m going into the dorms this fall and need to know if it would be safe to have my hair like that as I like how it looks. I’m aware it’s pretty clocky though. I really appreciate any advice or tips!! Thank you guys.

Here are some of my characters, go crazy! Comment a doodle of one of your/my characters and I’ll draw yours!! Don’t forget to draw one of mine in return. :^)

Got „bitch“ and „fuck you“ screamed at me when I didn’t respond… anyway here’s me, just came home.