u/dev000027

I've always found this interesting, the sound of rain and the gradual increase in volume as it comes near, and when I discovered that there was a word for the smell of rain I thought of this, is there any specific word for this?

Oh, to cry like I used to

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Oh, to cry like I used to,

Swimming in anguish, gut wrenching pain

A broken heart , a stubbed toe,

to let a tear out, anything you name.
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Oh, to cry, to feel,

Dreadful, dreary drooling eyes

Rollercoaster or a cloudburst

With Clenched fists, closed eyes,

but Heart, composed.

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On a cloudy night, beside the beach

In the shower, or an yearly adieu

Laying on bed, by the pillow

Ohh, how was it to feel again?

How was it to cry , once again?

- Dev

I've lost many friendships in the past due to many reasons, but I've lost more to time.

This is a story from when I was in 8th standard. All my friends had a watch, apo enikum venam ennayi, njn oru divasam ammayod ee karyam paranju, amma paranj njn ornam inn vangichond veramenn. Schoolil povuna neravum, schoolil indarna time motham njn ee watchine pati chindikuvarn, ath itt schoolil povunathum, ellare kanikunathum okke. Angane aa day evening my mother bought a watch for me, fasttrackinte watch aarnu ath , I loved the company. Amma aa pothi nte kayyil thannu, njn ath bayangaram excited aayi unbox cheyuvarn, pakshe pettan nte mughathulla aa punchiri maanju, aa watchinte dial Pink color aarnu.

njn ammayod paranju, "pinkaa", with a frown.

amma paranj, " nalla color elle mwone, enik istapett athond vangichatha"

mind you, njn oru color specify cheythilla, so amma ammak istapetta oru watch enik vangi thannatha, one which she thought would suit me. Pakshe I didn't like it, I hated it.

next day schoolil povan neram I took the watch out of the box and wore it, pine I felt a bit weird and left it there. Ann schooline thirich vannapo amma choich,

"Engane indayi puthiya watch okke itit? friends enthu paranju? "

I told her that I didn't wear the watch to school, ammade mukham pettan maari, she didn't say anything tho, well I was this sensitive kid back then, maybe athondavum.

next day I wore that watch told bye to my mom and left for school, but the instant I got into the auto which picks me up and drops me at school, I removed it and kept it inside my bag.

Angane kore divasam kadannu poi, with me doing the same thing. The truth was safe with my twin sister, she did ask me about it one day tho, for that I said something which I don't remember now.

Oru divasam classil irikumbol nte best friend vannu etho oru note ine vendi choichu, I told him that it's in my bag and you can take it, while he was searching the book, he found out the watch in by bag, he took it out and asked me,
"Eda, ith ninte watch ahno?"

My face turned red, I said,
"Ahda, amma vangi thanneyaa, pakshe nnik istapetilla"

he said, "Ehh, nalla watch ahnallo, nee ntha idathey? "

"pink aayond idan thonanilla" I replied.

Then he said, "Enna nee oru karyam cheyy, nee ente watch itto, njn ninte idam" , and he removed his watch and gave it to me, after which he wore the watch with the pink dial.

I was confused, why would he do such a thing? why would he choose to wear pink? Pakshe I was happy, he had a cool watch. So every morning, we swapped our watches , and in the evening we'd exchange the watches. I was scared of wearing his watch, it was costly, and I had very sweaty hands I didn't want to taint it, apo I kept it in my bag safely most of the time.

pinneyum divasangal kadannu poi, and I began thinking, if he can wear this watch why can't I, I thought it was an okayish color, one evening I took out the watch and wore it, surprisingly I loved the way it looked on my hands, complementing my skin color and all that, I was happy.

The next day, I wore my watch as usual, said bye to my mom and left for school, but I didn't remove it after I got into the auto, my twin sister looked at me , confused, I smiled.

Ann schoolil ethi, some of my friends did make fun of me, some complemented my watch, and then came by best friend, he saw the watch on my hands,

he smiled, I smiled back.

pine I went for entrance coaching during +1 and +2, njn hostelil ahn a time ninne and I changed schools too, hostelil azchayil 3 divasam kituna oru manikoor neram njn pothuve veetil vilikaan aahn upayogichath, while my classmates used to call their friends, I was more homesick. I did call some of my friends occasionally, pine kooduthal veetil verumbolaan friends aayit video call okke cheyane, pakshe ith was making all of us more distant.

naatil verumbol papa choikum, friends okke indo ivide? avardekoode porth okke poikoode enn, athin njn palapozzhum marupadi kodukarilla, I didn't know what to tell him tbh.

Last week avante birthday aarnu, so I wanted to wish him, we don't talk frequently nowadays, edk vech enthelum text cheyum, edk vech oru meetup plan cheythu pakshe than didn't work out, he is studying at a place far far away from our hometown and bayangaram rare aayite naatil verarullu. So I opened Whatsapp and searched for his name, only to find out that he haven't responded to my birthday wish sent an year ago, I felt sad and I closed wp.

Ee aduth njn oru reel kaananidayayi, about some people finding it hard to maintain relationships and friendships because everybody is busy focusing on their own personal life, doing things they love, building careers etc and ee therakulla jeevithathil palarkum ithoke maintain cheyanula effort idan patula ennula karyam, ath pakshe aardem thett ella, everyone has their own life in which they're the main character and we need to respect it, respect their individuality. pand kore samsaricha aalkar ipo korch samsarikanullu / it have reduced to just a birthday wish it did make me sad, pakshe ee oru reel acted as a closure for me.

maybe one day aa oru meetup possible aayirikum, maybe one day we all could sit at the beach, looking at the waves in the cold breeze , on a dreamy night and talk, and talk for hours leaving behind everything like we used to.

maybe one day.

fin.

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