u/devil_fcks

I live in Reseda and for drinking water we have 5 gallon refill water bottle that we fill from primo filling stations.

I was wondering where do i get clean drinking water for filling up my 5 gallons jugs , i want to change my usual primo set up.

Or recommend something else.
Not buying water bottles currently.

she and I mutually and respectfully parted ways not because we wanted to but we lost against the situation we were in, again which was out of our control.

Its gonna be an year in august since our last contact, I’m sharing one of the last messages i sent her, idk why am i sharing it, i guess i just want someone to read it. she did read it and blocked me after not because she wanted to because i said her to block me- i also said that she doesn’t need to reply since it was 3 months after we parted our ways.

I might need one last call from her, i think about her everyday, haven’t missed a single day. I’ve made my peace with everything related to this though, i live my life, im not in any mental distress, i miss her a bit much sometimes and i wont find a love like this again even though im the most optimistic person ik. Here’s the message 👇

Googpol (original word is “googol” we used to phrase it like that for fun ) is like infinite number.

" i hate how you arent the one reaching out but so proud of you at the same time. never a day passed without you in my thoughts, i promise you i haven't missed a single day. realized more and more that you are my only soulmate and thats it. been reading about *her religion* plus other religions and it made me lean towards being agnostic. just because we were born into different religions and fell in love existing in a world already this messed up, i am pretty sure the divine almighty will never punish two souls for that, despite of whatever any knowledgeable human says. for now i've decided i wont ever get married, i am slowly putting that thought into my mother’s head as well, so there's that. for a brief hour, think about how easily we get each other, its beyond anything i have ever experienced, it's magical on so many levels. in theory to say i just love you would be understatement, there is not enough english words honestly. i would write googpol words and then googpol more and i would just be starting to express my love for you. i would never feel this way about any other human, its simply is not possible for me, you are the only one i passionately desire. i will forever keep your name in my heart - "

i was driving and thinking.

if i owned a pew pew right now, the thought of pulling the trig on myself sounds good. (emphasis on thought)

the heading of this post has nothing to do with the context, i just love listening to pink floyd, which is a good story for another time since in all my bloodline, no one would ever listen to pink floyd music lol and me? i love it

before i share my thoughts, i wanted to say i consider myself an intellectual person by judging myself on my experiences throughout life, i am not seeking any advice but respectfully want to know your thoughts on something like this, share any stories, your thoughts or experiences in the comments.

anyways so i was thinking about life. i am not homeless, i dont have any chronic illness, i don’t have any problems with family, i have a very nice job, i was born in north india and now living in US, i consider myself utterly blessed by universe.

i have my own relationship with god, i can take care of myself yk, i can cook, i am hobbyist/passionate about making videos through my cameras, very blessed- i don’t have any complaints from life.

although what is the point?

i love traveling, i love cameras, i love trying new food and much more but if i don’t get to do all of it, thats alright with me.

life is suffering, life will always be unfair - look at the world in 2026 - imagine 30 years from now, we are doomed.

some basic self advices influenced by norm these days and my thinking on it

GET RICH? which is harder in its own way these days and requires a lot of effort with all the day to day things in life going on but Yes it will make life easier and then what though? the rich i am right now is half of the world population dream rich! Yes I will travel a lot more, get expensive cameras and then what? I already am satisfied with all the travel i did (which is not much) and i own good cameras, my brain is not hungry anymore…

GET ABS? physical looks speak positive volume and many humans work towards being attractive these days. Ive been fit and not excessively fat before. Yes eating healthy and being fit is amazing, it helps you in everything not just physical look but then what? get a nice girl attracted to me, live life w her, bring kids to this cruel world, then work more to give your kids everything, ‘work all year to get a 2-4 week vacation?’ pay insurances all your life, pay rent half or all your life and then one day, you are just gone! disappeared into the unknown…

GET SPIRITUAL? i have my fair share of moments of spirituality from the religion i was born and ive studied about other religions too but what is it i will achieve being spiritual? Be happy that i am a kind person all my life and will end up in heaven? there was this accident i saw on video, where a mom was going to work early in morning and one a-hole in his corvette ran red light and collided with the lady in the car killing both of them? are you understanding what I’m trying to say here? the most stupidest thing is calling life a test !! also ive seen religion beliefs divide humans more than getting us along….

I wanna write more and more but i will conclude with this, i been heartbroken before and been in love, im talking a love which binds your soul into one, i am talking love so strong, so fierce, so beautiful; so amazing that both of us couldn’t even understand how it was possible. i never met her in person but she was my what we call is a soulmate (using humans terminology here, its crazy how humans made language and gave meaning to it, words that comes out of our mouth also dictates how a lot of thing will go in our life, which if you think deeply is fascinating and make you think even more deeply, words carry a lot of weight and also - all you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be), she is married to someone else and its been almost a year of no contact. she can make all these thoughts go away honestly cause with her every nonsense thing made sense. almost all humans will assume my thoughts are pessimistic/negative or any other word, also one might think im depressed or any other human made word but thats not the case, i just had a very beautiful one day trip to big sur, amazingly amazing, if you never been you should, i love the videos i make and much more things to love, i dont regret single thing in my 26 years of life. the post is not related to her, i am not in denial, we both knew the outcome before the start.
(end of this paragraph story here)

maybe i am just tired of it all or maybe i feel too excessively much or maybe i am just getting more numb, and i do understand its all part of being a human.

i wanna write more lol but thanks for reading if you did and if you dont wanna read you can just say in genZ slang “i aint reading all dat” lol

I was curious to see how many people step in an airplane and was surprised to find out, 80% of the world population hasn’t boarded a plane ever.

I added my total miles flown on different airlines and i have flew around 160k miles, which puts me in top 2% of world’s population, which is so unintentionally crazy to me and i am the only person in my entire bloodline to have flown this much ! Just sharing a thought.

I will be flying on Friday back to LA, thats where im from, currently in Tucson area and looking for someone to join me for a kbbq night. Nothing weird, just food and good convo. Anyone can join! Dm me and lets make a plan:)

i am positive that you are married now and i can’t possibly think of marrying anyone else after being in your presence and being loved by you…. yesterday i was laughing while showering thinking about how no one can even come close to the magic and craziness you and I had over each other…. i wish nothing but happiness for you…. i still think about you everyday haha…. i am progressing in life without the idea of marriage…. i cant even imagine any other person understanding me better than you did…. ive deleted all our chats finally….. i love you always (thaskia)