i dont know why but receiving any offers for help scare me. my friends will dm me and ask if they can help in a specific way and i get so filled with guilt that i hide in shame instead of taking the help. i feel guilty for needing help. but i know i need it. how do i work around this? has anyone else experienced similar?
i dont know why but receiving any offers for help scare me. my friends will dm me and ask if they can help in a specific way and i get so filled with guilt that i hide in shame instead of taking the help. i feel guilty for needing help. but i know i need it. how do i work around this? has anyone else experienced similar?
ive been self harming and self mutilating since i was about 11 and im almost 30. i dont do it frequently and it definitely isnt a go-to coping method. it only really happens a few times a year, when im having a bad meltdown, but they're really bad relapses.
because i never stopped, each time i relapse scares me more because i forget what im capable of. and of course, i have this immeasurable guilt that comes afterwards.
this last time, i really scared my girlfriend. she was so scared she threw up for like an hour straight because she didnt know what to do.
that plus having to lie about where they came from to everyone, i cant help but feel like a monster.
right now Im seeing a psychiatrist who isnt the best, and i dont have access to therapy. im also disabled. so im looking for anything that might help thats accessible. even words of encouragement if you can spare them. anything that bring you out of the moment. i honestly am looking for any support, because i cant talk to anyone else in my life about this. thank you
im not sure how to change or fix this? basically when i am checking my mic settings in OBS and hear myself, i sound smooth as all hell. but when i stream- i sound awful! completely blown out! does anyone have a solution for this? ive tried everything and i dont know what to do