u/dutchgrace97

My story with this is crazy. I’ll make it quick. In May, my husband lost his career as a law enforcement officer.. and my daughter’s rare disease was trying to come out of remission. We were really hitting hard times. Before then, I was prescribed Effexor for depression and anxiety. It started making my anxiety worse and my doctor prescribed me Klonopin. I wanted more than that because, chemically, I was getting more panic from the Effexor than usual. I was taking only a very small dose of 7 every now and then. Then I was taking 2 mg of Klonopin. After about 3 months, 7 got banned and my doctor ripped me off my pills. They INCREASED my Effexor and I was cold turkey off 250-300 mg of 7 AND Klonopin simultaneously. And also forgetting to take my EFFEXOR and getting serotonin discontinuation syndrome. Doctor wanted to take me off my Effexor cold turkey as well which is EXTREMELY hard to do.

I am actually traumatized by this. I am never doing anything ever again. I felt a tangible darkness. I felt like I was in hell. Literally. Prayers for me. It was by the grace of God that I’m not doing worse than I should have been. Built different and feel like I literally have PTSD from this. At 9 days right now.

My story with this is crazy. I’ll make it quick. In May, my husband lost his career as a law enforcement officer.. and my daughter’s rare disease was trying to come out of remission. We were really hitting hard times. Before then, I was prescribed Effexor for depression and anxiety. It started making my anxiety worse and my doctor prescribed me Klonopin. I wanted more than that because, chemically, I was getting more panic from the Effexor than usual. I was taking only a very small dose of 7 every now and then. Then I was taking 2 mg of Klonopin. After about 3 months, 7 got banned and my doctor ripped me off my pills. They INCREASED my Effexor and I was cold turkey off 250-300 mg of 7 AND Klonopin simultaneously. And also forgetting to take my EFFEXOR and getting serotonin discontinuation syndrome. Doctor wanted to take me off my Effexor cold turkey as well which is EXTREMELY hard to do.

I am actually traumatized by this. I am never doing anything ever again. I felt a tangible darkness. I felt like I was in hell. Literally. Prayers for me. It was by the grace of God that I’m not doing worse than I should have been. Built different and feel like I literally have PTSD from this. At 9 days right now.

I have been on this stuff for about 2 months and at most I did about 300mg towards the end. My family and I are going through a very hard time and I innocently used it to ease some anxiety. Now, 1 week clean from CT- and I will say… That literally traumatized me. The shear panic and wanting to d*e was real. Edit: I was also WD off of Klonopin CT not by choice.

I can only say that there was no other level of darkness I have felt. It was tangible in a way. I pray that others will never start and have the strength to quit. I’m very slowly getting better. Too slow though ❤️‍🩹

I’ve been trying to rage bait scammers and for some reason I haven’t gotten ANY scam calls or even emails lately! I guess I’m lucky (or unlucky in this case). Anyways- if anyone wants to help me out I’d appreciate it!

I heard viber was a good one. So I just got one. Never have done this before but I’d like to have some fun with it

Before I explain, I know that texting strips away the emotion that real life conversations have. Some people don’t like texting too- I understand all of that. But my MIL actively dismisses me or will text back something totally unrelated to a message that I was vulnerable in or trying to make conversation. (Ex: How was your trip?) or (Ex: a picture/message of an accomplishment that I’m proud of or needing advice for). She makes my husband and I both feel like we are bothering her and only texts my husband and makes plans for the grandkids. She has always made me feel like an absolute outsider.

Yet, in person she is bubbly, nice and very approachable. It is literally the EXACT opposite, and consistently... Can someone give me some insight??

I’ve been taking 7 for about a month. I’m up to about 250 mg a day.. sometimes a little more or less. I went 16 hours and started to feel like absolute shit..

I’ve seen multiple things people have said helped them with withdrawal such as- Taper, Kratom substitute, Suboxone (I won’t do), passionflower extract, vitamin c…

No bs, can anyone help me out here and give me some advice to what will be the best at making this easier?

It’s my first day quitting and I’m wondering what withdrawal symptoms everyone else has had? I’m getting really weird “dream like” feelings and when I close my eyes to lay down, I’m getting crazy images and feelings. My heart feels tight and I feel dead inside.

I’m praying that it will be okay. Any tips for healing?