u/essenceofnutmeg

Neurospicy queer leftist here... just trynna find my people 🫠

I posted this in r/blackpeople, i hope it's ok here as well... I'm hesitant to post this because I feel like I'm calling out into the void and hate bringing attention to myself, but i'mma do it anyway.

It's hard out here, and I'm just trying to find my people, even if there are only a couple of us 😅😭

i'm chugging along this dumpster fire of a timeline one emaciated braincell at a time, and sometimes i feel like i'm not gonna make it.

I'm involved in community organizing in my area, but I still feel so isolated and alone because of its demographics (mostly white/Hispanic heterosexual), and its practice is not rooted in the Black Radical Tradition.

My concentration and focus are pretty much nonexistent, no matter how hard I try to lock in on my studies... like, avoiding all news and social media for a period of time doesn't help. Now they are trying to take away the meds I need to function.

I can't talk to my loved ones about the increasing genocidal subjugation of transpeople and overall attack on LGBTQ individuals, and the impact it's all having on me, because all that is forbidden in their religion... I guess I can talk to them about it, but that's just a whole mess of mental stress I'm avoiding.

How are you holding up? What are some challenges you are coming across? How do you stay functional in this hellhole we call reality?

I just don't want us to feel so alone ❤️

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u/essenceofnutmeg — 6 days ago

Any black neurospicy queer leftist in here?

I'm hesitant to post this because I feel like I'm calling out into the void, but i'mma do it anyway.

It's hard out here, and I'm just trying to find my people, even if there are only a couple of us 😅😭

i'm chugging along this dumpster fire of a timeline one emaciated braincell at a time, and sometimes i feel like i'm not gonna make it.

I'm involved in community organizing in my area, but I still feel so isolated and alone because of its demographics (mostly white/Hispanic heterosexual), and its practice is not rooted in the Black Radical Tradition.

My concentration and focus are pretty much nonexistent, no matter how hard I try to lock in on my studies... like, avoiding all news and social media for a period of time doesn't help. Now they are trying to take away the meds I need to function.

I can't talk to my loved ones about the increasing subjugation of transpeople and overall attack on LGBTQ individuals because all that is forbidden in their religion... I guess I can talk to them about it, but that's just a whole mess of mental stress I'm avoiding.

How are you holding up? What are some challenges you are coming across? How do you stay functional in this hellhole we call reality?

edit: I created r/Melanated_Leftist for people who feel seen by my post. I just don't want us to feel so alone ❤️

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u/essenceofnutmeg — 8 days ago