u/estrogenicbiomaxxer

I don't necessarily just want to continue, but I also don't want to stop entirely either, should I lower my dose while I am questioning... or?

Im not diagnosed yet, but from what i know about myself, its probably OCD

I get this really bad sense of dread and regret and almost like, I wish I was male, but I'm MTF, I know I don't exactly want to be a male, but sometimes I feel as such,

I don't exactly know how to deal with it, it basically ruined my day today.

Does anyone have advice for this?

I don't know if this is like, bad to post or anything? But I was there today, and usually you're supposed to have fun. But instead I was filled with just regret and like something horrible was going to go wrong.

As if I was somehow wrong about being queer and transgender, and that maybe I'm just a man. It was not a pleasant experience and honestly made this pride kind of suck.. I sort of wanted to cry.

I don't want to ruin anyones day, but I want to know if someone has ever experienced something similar.

For context I've been getting these sudden urges of regret and ideas that I should detransition roughly for around 2-3 months and I don't know if I should go through with it or not. It comes on and off. Does this mean anything? Keep in mind I do have OCD, so it could be an obsession instead of anything I should seriously consider about myself

HRT 6 months.

I don't know if this is like, bad to post or anything? But I was there today, and usually you're supposed to have fun. But instead I was filled with just regret and like something horrible was going to go wrong.

As if I was somehow wrong about being queer and transgender, and that maybe I'm just a man. It was not a pleasant experience and honestly made this pride kind of suck.. I sort of wanted to cry.

I don't want to ruin anyones day, but I want to know if someone has ever experienced something similar.