u/etherealx0x

Hi!! I’m kinda going through it right now and would love some advice from an outside perspective.

so i’m working part time in customer service and it’s BEEN terrible, i’ve been looking to teach more yoga/ work for a wellness business to get out of this extremely shitting and stressful job, but job market has been extremely thin.

I stumbled across an amazing opportunity. it was an assistant position at a yoga massage place for marketing and such. i literally was extremely excited because this is something i’m looking for. i have a background in marketing and make posters all the time for yoga business and my personal instagram page. i have tons of experience for exactly what they were looking for.

i got an interview and it went SO well. i know it’s sounds silly but i i started making little animations for their instagram page and stuff, just messing around. feeling super confident.

they finally got back to me today and they gave that position to someone else, however they said they liked my background in yoga specifically and would like to discuss more about a position at her business just for yoga.

here’s how i’m feeling. i’m honestly extremely devastated. i feel like that marketing position would have really showcased my talents. I LOVE TEACHING yoga but this position was a blend of everything i’m good at and looking for. i honestly want to say i’m not interested, just because i feel like my ego might get in the way and get jealous of the person who received that position. also she’s been trying to grow her yoga so not a lot of students. all my jobs so far have been this position. i get called on because they really like what i do then they lay me off a month later because no one’s signing up and it’s better not to have someone extra on the team.

i feel like taking on this position of just teaching yoga i would have a hard time not staying in my lane. definitely my ego here speaking but i feel like i already had so many good ideas and improvements. i don’t want to get jealous or angry or feel like i’m overstepping.

what would you do?

hii!! i know there’s probably a ton of posts like this i’m not trying to add to the list, but i’m really trying to explore my gender more. i’m nonbinary gay. i already lean towards feminity heavily. i don’t really wear makeup or anything like that because of my job, only when i go out or special occasions. i do wear gender neutral/ womens clothes and really enjoy just feminine products and things. i’m starting to realize i would like some more feminine features and explore that.specifically my face i get really dysphoric about.
i’m just curious, im still exploring things, what are some ways to start exploring having more feminine features? i’m not sure if im 100% ready to start HRT but i really want to look more feminine and feel more comfortable and confident. i view myself internally as super sexy and feminine but when i look in the mirror (while dancing or something) i tend to just get really dysphoric and want to change things yk. especially with dating, i haven’t been in a relationship but i tend to see myself as the feminine body when thinking about a relationship.
would love some advice!