u/feistyredhead444

Anyone else constantly spiraling about getting caught with all the too obvious stupid shit you’ve done? I’ve done amphetamine, cathinones and other things in like 50 different public bathrooms & even spilled. Gym… train… restaurants… cars… etc I randomly remember the time I did coke in a taxi backseat and managed to spill AS WELL. Yes, I’m embarrassed. I have met up with dealers waaaaay to publicly and it makes me spiral that one day the police will find surveillance camera footage of me just getting my bag or something. 💀

Has anyone in here actually gotten arrested? because I can’t tell if I’m just being paranoid, or if I’m actually just reckless about my ways when I do get and enjoy my stuff. Don’t get me started about using my real Snapchat account to reach out to dealers… uhhh… yeah, however.. how do y’all keep safe? both from the law and dealers just selling you impure bad quality products? This was like a full on humiliation ritual but I hope I made someone feel seen lol. //Feisty

(mentioning of substances and addiction ⚠️)

Hello! 👋🏻
This is my first post, coming from an autistic woman. If this is a subject you’re not allowed to touch, I apologize and I’ll remove it. I was wondering if anyone else with autism has experiences with substance abuse, such as alcohol issues, substances or even other self-destructive issues. What caused you to start and, if you managed to stop what was your motive?

To keep it short, I had major alcohol issues for about 2,5 years and as I reflect on it today, I’ve realized that my autism and mental health issues made me very vulnerable to addiction. The first sip of alcohol was like a total relief for me. I dare to say it acted as a total blocker for my autistic traits and my personality in general. You become like a floating object without having to think so much, and social interactions suddenly don’t stress you out. In situations where I’d normally become overstimulated and anxious I could just casually float by it feeling chilled out.

As you may have suspected and realized already, alcohol became a sinking ship for me and a very dangerous pathway to take if you feel that kind of relief. As a last act of harm reduction I just really want to mention how easy it is to take a really terrible pathway in life if you don’t see the warning signs early on and stop, not just to cut it out, but manage to get sober as early as possible. I also want to point out the importance of finding peace within yourself and to treat eventual mental health issues if you are capable to. Even more important is to get help to understand your diagnosis and how you work before you EVER decide to touch a substance. I learned that the hard way unfortunately and that’s why I’m trying to help people out, if I can proceed to. //Feisty ❤️‍🩹

Hello everyone! ❣️

This post is dedicated to people who have any type of experience with autism type 1, also called high functioning autism or Aspbergers in older terms. I just have so many questions even efter being diagnosed finally in 2024. Look, I get the concept of dividing the spectrum altogether based on how much support you need in your daily life. But I also feel like no one is looking at the broader perspective of autism, especially when it comes to women on the spectrum where it’s still so much neglecting both from the public but also from healthcare professionals which is even more disturbing. We’re often misdiagnosed and misunderstood.

To put things into perspective, I was extremely shy, a little awkward and rather a bit odd growing up like I had a very own way of doing my things but nothing in particular that’s really stuck out as typical autism. I have always been very good in school and taught myself to read and write and I could speak multiple languages when I was about eight. Although my deep anxiety started very early I even went to a doctors appointment telling the doctor that I had a “lump” in my stomach and I was prescribed anti-constipation medication ironically enough.

Looking back today it was an obvious case of social anxiety where my nerve system was constantly acting up. Yet, there was also a lack of awareness from the adult world and as a child I had no idea what exactly was expected of me. Further on, after living undiagnosed and untreated for 20 years of my life I had slowly begun to realize how rapidly worse my mental health was getting. I had longer episodes of depression, spiraling anxiety which lead to self harm and other things i won’t mention here. Sure, finally getting evaluated and coming to terms with myself and others that I actually had autism was obviously a relief. Yet, getting answers doesn’t necessarily fix my piece of mind. I was stuck with a highly masked personality, identity issues, severe anxiety, depression and instability in all parts of my life. I even got misdiagnosed with bipolar 2.

I feel some kind of rage and pure sorrow, not towards anyone specifically but more against our society’s lack of understanding the broad variety of autism (especially amongst girls) how many more children is just going to pass through the system because they’re not the typical description of an autistic boy with many needs and social difficulties? How many more burnt out teenagers and young adults should we have to see before something changes? How many more girls is going to get misdiagnosed with borderline or bipolar disorder purely because of their unregulated ADHD/Autism? I also wonder how other high functioning autistic’s perceive their diagnosis and how it affects them in their daily life. Love & peace. //Feisty 🫶🏻