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Well wanted to end this night I once again kept looking at porn a gooder side. Today was good. Things went well. Had family we hadn’t seen in a while. Spirits were high as I’m going to bed. Have trouble sleeping. Go at it again. But I was really discon from it today. Still compuled to, but completely interested. It felt more like just moving through the motions. Thinking to myself just get this done. Looking back on today too, it kinda gave me the realization that my did I really me my day like this, after it was so good. Was tired and could’ve gone to bed but chose porn and was a spare sweat mess that’s gonna now be up all night. I still chose this and sure it was pleasurable, but I didn’t like it. Maybe it’s nothing or something, but for years of being disconnected from my own emotional awareness it seems significant enough.

Anyway if you got through that rant, any comments or advice?

Just need some advice.

Story is similar to most. Exposed to porn at like 10 or 11 I think. Pretty sure I’ve developed CSBD. To not rant abt my volatile single mom, isolated childhood, etc, I got a lil messed up. Which I’m starting to realize more and more. Especially the self shame I have. Not just for this.

I realized it was a problem around the end of high school. Tried to fight it, got my consumption down but still using to this day. This summer though I really fell back into it. I have a real fear of developing ED and I know even if I don’t stop completely I need a break from it. That’s the other thing too. I know we as human are sexual, there’s nothing inherently wrong with that. But on the other hand there the over use problem, to the point where it feels like it’s sucking the life from me, making feel well numb most of the time.

Please what advice do yall have, therapist or just anyone, for dealing with CSBD, porn addiction, porn shame, whatever you want to call it.

Just need some advice.

Story is similar to most. Exposed to porn at like 10 or 11 I think. Pretty sure I’ve developed CSBD. To not rant abt my volatile single mom, isolated childhood, etc, I got a lil messed up. Which I’m starting to realize more and more. Especially the self shame I have. Not just for this.

I realized it was a problem around the end of high school. Tried to fight it, got my consumption down but still using to this day. This summer though I really fell back into it. I have a real fear of developing ED and I know even if I don’t stop completely I need a break from it. That’s the other thing too. I know we as human are sexual, there’s nothing inherently wrong with that. But on the other hand there the over use problem, to the point where it feels like it’s sucking the life from me, making feel well numb most of the time.

Please what advice do yall have, therapist or just anyone, for dealing with CSBD, porn addiction, porn shame, whatever you want to call it.

My mom and I are flying into Milan in a couple weeks. I wear a Star of David.Wondering how it is being openly Jewish in Italy. What areas are good/bad, what to expect in general.

My mother and I are flying into Milan in a few weeks. Wondering how it is being openly Jewish there. I wear a Star of David. What areas are good or bad, what to expect, how to carry ourselves, etc.

My mom and I are going to be traveling to Italy for two weeks. I’m wondering from Italian Jews and Jews who have been to Italy in recent years how it is being openly Jewish there. I wear a Star of David and sometimes a kippah. What areas are good and what areas to avoid.

So I am thinking about wearing tzitzit more, maybe even regularly. However I’m conflicted because I’m not as observant as most who wear tzitzit are. Basically I’m not orthodox.

I wrap tefillin and keep the high holidays fully. I sometimes wear a kippah throughout the day. I have just recently started to keep Shabbat, but not fully. The only kosher law I keep is not eating pork. Etc, etc. Even my own spirituality is supper strict.

If I did wear them, I would have them tucked most of the time, especially because I don’t wear a kippah regularly. Anyway, just want yalls thoughts.

Can I do the RBT assessment without working for a company? I know most times people will do their RBT training and assessment through the company they work for. However I’m doing my 40 hours independently through my university course and because of when the fall semester starts and my school being two hours away I feel like it would be weird to try and be hired, assessed, and work as an RBT in however long that will take, only to leave in say, a month. If possible I’d rather be assessed independently, take the exam, than find a company around my school.

EDIT: One thing I thought of, could I find somewhere to work a a behavior tech while doing my 40 hours independent, then just continue the rest with the company?

I just starting doing my 40 hour training via an online course through my university. My plan was to do the training, assessment, test, then find somewhere to work. However I just now learned that the competency assessment has to be done via your employer and that often time all three of these are done through an employer. Because of current personal circumstances I felt it was better to do the training myself before being hired and having yo drive somewhere multiple times a week. Now I’m if I can continue with the 40 hour training and find somewhere to work afterwards and tell them I just need to complete the assessment and take the test?

Side note, is doing all of this before school starts again in August possible? I go to school two hours from my home town and I feel like it would be weird to be hired somewhere and then be like sorry I gotta leave after only being here this short time. Currently trying to find a company that has a location close to where I live and where I go to school.

Found a U id in front of the hub. Gave it to the person at the hub entrance.