u/frvakairaah_

I don't know what to do first and i barely know some words and i have school in september so i just have a month or two to learn at least some words. Need help, thank you!!!

syempre, iba yung panahon dati. and my grandma probably got blinded by love. but all i wanna say is, i wish she didn't marry someone like him. hindi pa mayaman, that's basically the worst way to live life.

my grandpa throws phones at her, kahit ano ano pa yan. and also steals money from the family, MIND YOU also stealing from his own children's tas he sold my uncle's gold chain that was worth 50k. no one knew about that, not until it was just gone. he admitted it anyway. plus, he keeps blaming my mother for everything, the bills, her ruining her own life when he's the one who ruined his wife's life at the first place 😂 like why do you have the audacity to say such things? and he gets mad easily, it's not a big deal. i just sit and then he starts yapping as if i did such crime. wala ka na ngang trabaho, wala ka pang ginagawa sa bahay like chores, your wife is still working and does all household chores. he makes the house SO toxic to the point I'd rather stay in school than go home. he's acting as if he's the boss in the house, always wasting thousands of money on stupid lottery. he doesn't even win, like bruh what the hell? edi nasayang din yung pera.

i don't know, i feel mentally tired kahit summer break namin. and maybe because too much is expected saakin and i fear that I'll disappoint them. and also, at bed, hirap na hirap ako bumangon to the point i can stay there the whole day. i don't have the energy for everything, even going outside makes me feel overwhelmed. "tamad ka lang."

maybe, pero nakakapagod. i just find myself staring at the wall and see others feel happy while I'm stuck on my mind. hindi ko alam bakit napapagod ako kahit wala naman talaga akong ginagawa. I feel unmotivated and tired in ways that sleep can't fix. nawawalan na ako nang gana sa lahat, it feels like everything doesn't matter anymore.

hindi ko talaga alam ano ba dapat gagawin ko, kasi ako, hindi tinuro ng mama ko yung mga dapat alam ko na ngayon. (papa ko ofw so basically, it's my mom who basically raised me) sinasabihan ako ng "wala naman yan alam gawin." for me, nakakahiya talaga. andami nilang inexpect, pero ang dami kong kinailangan aralin mag isa. i have to learn everything myself. and it sucks because she isn't even a bad mom, she just never taught me things.

unfriend/unfollow them, baka kayo pa maging villain sa story ng partner ng ex niyo lol

i forgot to unfriend my ex before sa socmed, i was really busy. 10 months passed, nalaman ko lng na may bago siyang gf because his gf texted me in messenger.

she said, "Hello! i hope I'm not disturbing pero, may relasyon pa din ba kayo ni (name ng ex ko)? ilang months na kasi kita nakikita sa friends suggestion ko, kinuwento ka din niya. i hope u don't take this in the wrong way, alam mo naman na may gf yung tao Kinekereng mo pa din sya? like what the hell is wrong with you? hindi ka naman kagandahan, no wonder nag break up kayo."

I was laughing and also confused to the point hindi ko nalang sinagot, pero it shows na sineen ko. lmao.

after that day, two of her friends messaged me in messenger.

friend 1:

"atecco hindi ka ba nahihiya? may jowa yung tao eh, past is past"

friend 2:

"Ang baboy, nakakainis yung mga taong feelings aesthetic pero nang lalandi lang ng may jowa. HAHA"

and both sl#tshamed me and calling me names, i didn't mind and just told her the truth. Actually, nung binasa ko yung first message niya sakin, i already unfriended my ex sa fb. nalaman ng ex ko and made her gf apologize anyway :/

still, i found it funny.

Ano kaya thought process ng mga taong nag ccheat INSTEAD OF breaking up?

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my friend and her ex bf had been together since high school, like high school love typa shi, it was sweet cus i saw her inlove. both are 30 and still not engaged (yan yung age na nag break up sila), lately, i noticed how her bf looks out of love with her, like i felt that. mind you, 14 years NO RING. like what the hell? but i didn't mind that, baka hindi pa sila nakaipon.

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i discovered her bf was on a dating app, my cousin has been in a relationship with him for 4 months. MIND YOU, walang alam friend ko. i told my cousin that alam naman niyang may gf yung guy, bat nag agree siya? she said, binuntis daw ng ex ng friend ko. i was in disbelief, cousin ko pa talaga and that bastard. idk dati kung pano ko sasabihin sa friend ko, but i told her anyway. of course she didn't believe it at first, but i gave her proofs. she felt heart broken and broke up with him, she recovered after 4 months, at least.

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now, she's 34, meanwhile her ex is also 34 while my cousin is 28... and the baby is almost 4 years old. MAY ALL MANCHILD DIE

i might get attacked, but what do you mean Ill invalidate all my feelings just to understand them? even if i genuinely love them, and also care for them, staying patient, kahit ilang beses ko pa siya i-understand, lmao hindi naman sa hinahate ko sila ah, why consider getting into a relationship if you're gonna distance yourself?

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"confuse lang sila"

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confuse my non-existent balls, alam niyo, alam din ng iba na avoidant sila eh. aware naman pala diba? if you love someone, ipaglaban mo. hindi yung umiiwas kayo kasi hindi nyo alam kung ano ang nararamdaman ng taong iniiwasan niyo. please handle yourself first, hindi obligation ng partner mo na hulaan yung mga nasa utak ninyo, if you have avoidant attachment NEVER BE IN A RELATIONSHIP

partners talking like a baby