Im scared of wanting to change my body
My family has a generational eating disorder, my mom my aunts my cousins my grandma all of them have eating disorders but ive always tried to not fall into that but las year i gained a lot of weight and I dont like my body anymore and this was my biggest fear. Im scared i will develop an eating disorder if i try to loose weight, trying diets or doing exercise scares me so so so much and im stuck not liking my body, ive tried to accept it all this year and i cant do it, im so scared, this is my worst nightmare, i want to loose weight but im so fucking scared.