u/gomickyourself222

It’s fucking ruining my life. I can’t say fucking shit! I would fucking LOVE to go mute.. but nooooooooooo I physically fuckin can’t because I fucking like talking. God I fucking hate this with such a strong passion. I have few friends who I barely know because I can’t fucking talk to them without being fucking drunk. AND I FUCKING DONT EVEN REMEMBER THE FUCKING CONVERSATION. I have tried so many fucking things to help but I’ve only found Three things that actually make a difference. Lexapro, ashwa, beer. This is after decades of trying so many different medications, a lot of different types of therapy including hypnosis and ketamine. Three things that only cut the time of stuttering to getting the word out by 0.10 seconds.

I fucking hate this. This is not sympathy, just a fucking ramble. Ok goodbye you fuckers.

This is from a dream, a recurring dream to be exact that I’ve had for years. I know the whole Russian sleep experiments are a creepypasta… but why would I have such a vivid dream about something that actually exists?

It first started out in the red room of the White House. I was standing at a table with about 15 other people talking and discussing a ship that was about to be built. We were all talking about how much nuclear energy it would use. Once the blueprints were being handed around, it got to me and as soon as I read what it would be named I “woke up” within the next part of this dream.

I was talking to some of the people who were working on it and they were saying that it would be finished on the dark side of the moon.

I saw it being built, i saw the insides of it (everywhere inside even the hiding place for if shit goes bad), I saw it fly over the ocean, and then be launched into space.

This entire dream is lucid every single time I have it.

The last time I had this dream it was a continuation. I was flying it in space fighting someone or something. The ship got hit and went down. I woke up when I died.

I looked up the name of this ship and it’s called the USS kraken. It’s a real existing ship that the US and the UK made during WWII as a last resort if shit got nuclear. This is why they were “testing” nukes in the ocean. To hide this behemoth of a ship. The nuclear waste that’s in the ocean now is from the sheer amount of radioactive material it uses to fly and destroy. If it were to fly over land, that’s the end of humanity.

Ok so back to my original thought of being in a Russian sleep experiment. We all know they use sleeper spy’s, right? Especially back then with the KBG.

The red room of the White House is restricted to even the press. Nobody can go in or out without having power.

So how the fuck am I able to still fully remember almost everything in there? I can still fully remember what building the ship was built in. This ship is still classified enough to where I’m honestly kinda scared to write this. If the blueprints were to get into the wrong hands, again that’s fucking IT for humanity. We all would die if we just so happened to be in its line of flight. Think a billion nukes dropping all at once in one spot but it slowly moves.

Ik, ik this is from a dream… but the fact that the ship is real, terrifies the fuck outta me. It’s just waiting on the dark side, dying to be used again.

Ok, ok so I know that’s a VERY common question. I know. But at the same time with alllllllllllllllllllll the shit that has happened and will continue to happen.. HOW DOES ANYTHING MAKE SENSE?

We evolved from apes, then these humanoid ape beings, then what we are now. We created society, social systems, justice systems, city’s, cars, planes, ways to create food out of nothing but water and whatever the food is, its dust. We have created so much in honestly not that much time. The technological revolution hit around 1890. It’s been not even 300 years since. Yet we have ai, space ships, space technology, phones that you carry EVERYWHERE, cars that drive themselves, etc. etc. etc. 300 years isn’t that long for us. For everything else it’s forever, but for us it’s a blink of an eye? Honestly, how does that make sense? Yes we are the fucking apex predator of earth. There is over 8 billion of us. But how the fuck did we get so fucking smart in so little time? While yes there has been thousands of cultures and traditions and people all over the world from thousands and millions years ago but then again the first humans, actual humans, became conscious around I think 2 million years ago…? Before the first ice age or something…. (If I’m wrong don’t kill me.) but at the same time they knew shit even before they became conscious. They were simply animals and guess what? Animals know shit. They know a fucking lot. They’re so much smarter than people realize.

If we were to somehow combine every single religious belief on earth even lost ones, I just wonder how many things they all have in common with the question “why are we conscious?” Or “how did we become conscious?”

In these religions, there’s probably thousands to millions of gods. If you notice the pattern, they’re all fairly the same. Peace, love, unity, happiness, harmony, sometimes ‘evil’, hateful, etc. There’s also gods for the seasons and changing times and stuff.

Where did we get the idea to have gods? Praising people for what they do is still extremely common. But back then it was different. Yes I know about this, but a lot of gods have special powers if you will that can do stuff “no mortal can ever do without it killing them or something.” What really are these “powers”? Like let’s take Zeus for example. He’s the head guy on top of Mount Olympus and he’s the most powerful and the most strongest god to reside on this mountain. He can hold lightning bolts and throw them at such great speed and power that it can blow up a building or some shit. How can he do this? How is he a god? Almost everything says he looks human. If he can do anything like this, he

shouldn’t look human. I’m sorry but no.

The idea of gods having a human like appearance is to make us not terrified of them because in all honesty.. we have no fucking clue what they truly look like. They can look like absolutely anything. In Christianity it says that god looks like man. There’s verses though saying he’s pure light. What does he look like? If anything..? (I know people are gonna get upset about this but idfc.) The human brain when it comes into contact with something so fucking powerful and just beyond its pure comprehension, it distorts it to be less traumatic. I personally kinda think this is what happened to everyone who has “met a god”. Even myself when I had a NDE and i physically met Jesus Christs sprit. (Jesus Christ is not god. He is the physical incarnation of god.) He held me up to his face to talk to me and send me back but i physically couldn’t see his face. I saw the rest of his ‘human body’ but not his face because it literally looked like the sun was directly in front of it, completely blocking everything. I couldn’t even see his hair if he had any.

With this, you also gotta remember imagination exists. What if somewhere some kid who had absolutely nobody in their life and got INSANELY lonely to the point they created out of imagination a friend. With this imaginary friend, maybe they thought they could physically do something or even with the idea of sprits and shit being able to possess absolutely anything, what if it got possessed by a sprit of some kind and was actually physically capable of being able to move shit y’know. And then the kid realizes it’s ’alive’ and tells everyone that it’s some sort of god and it goes from there.

Taking this and into another thought.. what if we’re the possessed things? It says in the Bible that god breathed life into us before we’re sent down earth (or something…. Don’t kill me..). What if that’s him possessing us? He’s putting his energy into our hallow shells we call bodies… kinda like possession…. He is considered a sprit. What if the saying in the bible where it says that he knows everything we do all the time, 24/7, 364 days… is proving this possession? While I am talking about the Christian god, so many other gods all around the world are somehow able to do this. This goes back to another thing I’ve already said. What are these powers? While I just went over possession and shit, still. What causes them to have such power? With the theory of these gods being from completely different worlds and dimensions, what if they are physical but just not humanly physical? Like how we see stuff on earth. How do we know they’re not animals? How do we know they’re simply not aliens and the theory (theories) of us being in a dome type thing were we’re some sort of experiment? We don’t. That’s the thing. What if our entire galaxy is in this type dome thing where we can only go so far within it without running into trouble with these said beings? There’s also not to mention billions upon billions of other planets within our galaxy alone.

Who. The. Fuck. Knows.

This is long and I know it’s long sorry. This is mainly a ‘what if’ type thing. This is isn’t truth (that I know of………). It could be completely wrong and WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY off. Take this as you will. Again not really trying to prove shit… just mainly a really high ramble.. I’m sorry if I made anyone upset with all my talk about god and shit but it goes with everything..

Ok goodbye. If you read all this, thank you.