Help please!!!
When I was 17, I met a guy and fell for him at first sight. We started talking and it went on for a while, but he was never that interested in me. Over time, I became obsessed with him. I texted him a lot, probably too much, and wanted something with him so badly.
At some points, I felt like there was some kind of connection because every now and then he would do or say things that gave me hope. I even wrote an entire novel about him. But then he got a girlfriend (they’re not together anymore).
Eventually, he blocked me everywhere because I couldn’t let go and I kept trying to contact him. That’s where it ended.
The problem is that it’s been 4 years now. I can’t think about my future or imagine anything in life without imagining him there too. Nobody has ever come close to making me feel the way he did.
I know this sounds ridiculous, stupid, or even crazy, but I genuinely feel some sort of connection to him and I can’t explain it. I want him on a level that feels almost painful.
Please don’t give me the usual advice like: “move on,” “work on yourself,” “stay busy,” “you’re romanticizing him,” “ignore him,” etc. I’ve heard all of that for four years. I’ve already tried basically everything people normally suggest, and none of it has helped.
I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m going to get sick from this. I need a different explanation, different advice, or at least to hear from someone who has experienced something similar.
Has anyone ever gone through something like this? Please, I really need help.