Our yard is largely garden and native meadow, but this one corner has nearly every invasive plant other than garlic mustard and knotweed.
Swallow wort, bittersweet, sumac, Virginia creeper, barberry, bindweed. I don’t know how to even begin tackling this, it’s spreading into the meadow area and the swallow wort and VC are encroaching on nearly everything within a 5 yard radius. I know it will just keep getting worse every year.
I’m on the hunt for a service or person with a truck who can move single pieces of furniture from near Noho/Easthampton to my house. I don’t have a car and am trying to accumulate furniture from FB Marketplace!
Any intel would be appreciated. I usually try to ask around for friend help but people are busy and there’s a bit of a time crunch with FB Marketplace!
I was diagnosed about four months ago now I think, and I still can’t wrap my head around it. It’s like I can’t even think about it in any detail. I only half-remember therapy but I got referred to one of the foremost DID psychologists in the country and I thought she’d say to just try better to ground, but now I’m doing parts work and it’s terrifying.
I feel like I’m going insane constantly. I feel like I’m a shattered fragment of something with no continuity and no personhood. If every time I “switch” I black out and don’t remember anything, then what’s the point of therapy? I don’t even remember the majority of my own days.
Does it ever get better? Is parts work even the right thing to be doing? I’ve been in therapy since I was 14, over a decade now, I’ve tried pretty much every modality. I briefly did IFS and I absolutely hated it. So how is this different than any other type of therapy? All it does leads to is me panicking and blacking out.
I need help with the flashbacks and the losing time and unreality and all the other weird awful stuff, not to be indulging this awful nonsense. If we treat PTSD and dissociation, fine, but I absolutely hate the parts stuff.
I currently work at a Jewish food justice farm attached to a synagogue, and I love my job.
I was raised Jewish, have studied Talmud at a queer yeshiva, have taken classes in Jewish studies in college, at one point I wanted to be a Reconstructionist rabbi. So you can imagine being Jewish is a huge part of my identity.
The problem is, I can’t access any of it while I’m at work. I can’t remember anything I studied, or read Hebrew, can’t remember if I use Hashem or G-d in conversation. I can’t remember how to pronounce words. I’ve told my boss I have memory issues, and for some reason told them about my PTSD. But it’s like work-me can’t access Jewish-me. It’s horrible. I don’t know how to fix it, it’s so embarrassing. I need to know all the “Jewish stuff” at work because it’s like 50% of the work. I interact with people who come in to get free food, community members, I educate kids from the attached elementary and middle school, etc. and I keep failing miserably because I can’t access my own knowledge.
Is this compost ready to spread? It has the consistency and smell of soil, it’s a little chunky/hasn’t been sieved or anything and the eggshells obviously are still there.
Do I need to screen it, and if so what’s the best way?