u/grosskidsid

hello, im currently looking for an OB-GYN and was reccomended the christianacare women’s health office in middletown. however, i have severe PTSD from two instances of sexual assault during my teenage years, one of which was pretty violent and left me having a fear of going to a gynecologist for years (22 now). i was wondering if anyone knows how their care is for people with trauma, or if anyone knows an office that is particularly good with patients dealing with trauma since i’m almost 100% gonna be crying during the entire exam 😅 thank you in advance!!!

all i did was eat taco bell and now my resting HR is in the low 90s instead of high 70s -_- the anxiety that comes with faster HRs drives me insane i just wanna eat junk food sometimes

ever since dealing with worsening chronic illness my anxiety has been genuinely crippling. i can’t sleep rn because my heart rate is too fast and i’m having acid reflux and bad heartburn so naturally i’m gonna assume i’m dying until it goes away. i’m scared of being away from my house so even at my partners house where i know i’m safe i’m terrified something bad is gonna happen to me. i don’t have any xanax so all i can even do is wait. i’m terrified and i hate it i just want to sleep. i have health anxiety and took a tylenol earlier even tho there’s no real interactions with any meds i’m on so i’m never taking one again because now i’m convinced it’s what caused this. i want to cry but i’m scared it’ll trigger a panic attack and those really convince me i’m dying 🫩🫩🫩 idk what to do anymore man i wish i could just have a steady xanax prescription instead of having to wait a month for buspirone to MAYBE work

have sent them no joke over a dozen documents DATES AND ALL from my doctor AS THEY TOLD ME TO and they’ll wait fucking eight days to email back with some bullshit excuse as to why it doesn’t fit. “your dates aren’t documented” THEYRE RIGHT THERE ON THE FORM!!! do they even read anything?!?! calling them is even more useless because no one in that call center has any fucking idea what they’re supposed to say and it’s not like i can understand their shitty cell service and thick accent anyway. i love DLS i love having no money i love being scared of losing my job over something i have zero control over. i literally qualify for disability APPROVE MY FUCKING LEAVE

i feel lightheaded and short of breath CONSTANTLY. i used to just feel nausea all the time but it’s like now it’s spread to half my body. i feel weak and faint no matter what i do. my chest is in pain numerous times a day. it’s like my lungs can never pull in enough air. i get dizzy from doing nothing. in literally a few months i feel like i’ve fallen so far from the body i used to have. i’m about to be 22, i’m worried what i’ll look like at 23. i’m worried i’ll start to become unable to do the things i love doing now. i deal with pretty bad CPTSD and whenever i have an episode/flashback the physical symptoms are at least twice as bad as they used to be. i feel like i can’t catch a break. doesn’t help i work a physical labor job in a warehouse where the whole building is hot af🥴. just ordered sodium pills so hopefully that does SOMETHING lol