u/groundspeed1987

I've been trying to get out of my current living situation for almost a year now. I'd like to move to another city about an hour away. I've tried to apply to several jobs there, with no success. If I stay in the dying town I'm in, I know I will suffer for the rest of my life. I don't have any connections in that city anymore. ​​But I am beyond my breaking point. I need to be able to start fresh and get away from some of my past (nothing illegal, mostly just family drama and dead end experiences.) I'm not a student, so I feel out of place no matter what.

Does anyone else have any experience, being on their own and trying to start out in another city?

I'd very much like to curse my narcissistic brother. He has really done a number on my head, throughout my life. He continues to get away with his manipulation and to be seen as a good person. He gets to sail off into the sunset while the rest of the people he has put down and verbally abused suffer the most. I've gone through therapy. I'm tired of seeing him smile. 

I'd very much like to curse my narcissistic brother. He has really done a number on my head, throughout my life. He continues to get away with his manipulation and to be seen as a good person. He gets to sail off into the sunset while the rest of the people he has put down and verbally abused suffer the most. I've gone through therapy. I'm tired of seeing him smile. 

I am at my breaking point. Every night. I am shattered. I cannot escape this hell. I should be somewhere else. Please, Jesus, please be with me. Help me out of this situation. I need healing.

I am beyond my breaking point. I have tried warm lines and hopeful texting programs. I have a terrible relationship with my family. All of my friends have moved on with their lives. I am the most alone I've ever felt in my life. I desperately need to get out of this living situation and get back to my healing.

Anyone else just terrified every single day?​

Please help me relocate. I have to find a new and better living situation. I'd love to be able to escape the hometown I'm in. Please help find me the perfect space to move to next. I need a fresh start in life. I miss my beautiful apartment. I wish I had a real friend to take me until I get things going again.

Please pray for a new living situation for me. I have to escape from the one I am in now. It is creating so much distress for me. I need to be able to take care of myself and heal. I've been screaming and crying to God for over a year now. I have fallen into the worst depression of my life. Please Lord, I need a quiet, new home. ​

Please pray for a new living situation for me. I have to escape from the one I am in now. It is creating so much distress for me. I need to be able to take care of myself and heal. I've been screaming and crying to God for over a year now. I have fallen into the worst depression of my life. Please Lord, I need a quiet, new home. ​

How badly have you messed up your life, and still were able to turn it around? I'm talking mental illness, poor decisions, abusive relationships (platonic or romantic,) self neglect or self sabotage, your own ego, homelessness, etc?

I cannot for the life of me, bring myself back up and continue fighting for what I want in this life. I am so far behind (emotionally, mentally, socially) than any other 38 year old I know.

And I know I cannot blame the world for my problems, but being single and tackling the ever rising cost of living, just makes me crumble regardless. I can't keep doing this for another 30 - 40 years.

Fuck you for taking everything. You will never understand how much you've taken from other generations. You own a massive home, 3 cars, a giant camper, vacation when and wherever you want, retired with pensions, and you STILL think you're poor? All I want is a decently clean small house, and a job I don't want to bash my head in at, an actual living wage. Fuck this world. Fuck everyone who had supportive parents to catapult their success rate in this life. Fuck Trump.

I can't do this anymore. I've read about the helium tank/hood, potassium cyanide ingestion and have even considered drowning with the weight of cinderblocks.

I can't keep facing the same problems in life.

38/F. Diagnosed with severe depression. 15+ years of therapy. Medication does not work.

I've had some terrible depressive episodes my whole life and have come out of some really dark times. I've been able to turn my life around for 4-5 years at a time, then everything seems to slowly crumble.

I know we shouldn't compare our lives to others, but I really am behind in life. Mentally, emotionally, and especially with education.

I have been in the worst living situations for the last year now. I've fallen into one of the deepest depressions I've been in for over 10 years now. I'm going on 3 months of bed rotting and just completely giving up. I can't stop crying. I cannot deal with this world and having to take on another dead end job. ​I cannot deal with this another 40 years. ​

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This life is too much. The weight of shame, jealousy and anger. Constant failure. Fuck this world.