Overdose to Sleep - Nobody Cares Why You Did It
This song made me very vulnerable and it was intense to record. I hope you enjoy.
Anhedonia to an eclipsing numbness
What was once a lack of pleasure
Became lackluster in anything at all
The pharmacy has a grip on my livelihood
As I'm persuaded by the soothing voice of psychiatry
Doctor;
I want to feel alive again
Is there a capsule for emotions?
Something that will spring me back to life?
Doctor, doctor;
Let me live freely
As manic as I desire
At least then I could breathe
There's no voice anymore
Just empty noises
That spill from my throat
And pour out my mouth
I'm not pure
I haven't been in a long time
I used to talk in millimeters, and milligrams
Now I speak in a dialect not even I understand
I want the room to think
Without all the fog
I want space to live
But sadly I'm not
When I was 5 I learned to tie my shoes
15 years later I learned to tie a noose
4 more years passed by and my hands are tied tight
And my ankles are chained to the floor
I don't want to be like this anymore
Death isn't an escape
But the allure is so captivating
So many wasted notes
So many lost words
So many distant goodbyes
So much smoke and so little butterflies
I want to be free
From these chains on my feet
But they're locked to ankles
And no one has the key
I want to move forward
I want just a chance
But I'm glued to the thought of
"Will I succeed?" and "I don't know if I can"
I'm crying out to you
These pills rip the joy from me
The way the voices ripped me apart
There's no middle ground to be made
There's no hope to seek
I'm endlessly depressed and
I'm so damn obsessed with
The voice of a final goodbye
The voice that leads me to the end of my life
But I don't want to die
I just want to be alright
...
Feedback:
This path feels familiar
A stumble and a fall
A faceplant into the dirt
Every time I pick myself up
And every time I breathe new air
But when is the next relapse?
When is the next fall?
My teeth are broken as is
I can't handle another moment like the last
Snow falls on my hands and they melt
But I'm still losing warmth
Everyday I grow jaded
Everyday I grow colder
...
When it's my time to pick myself up
I pray to God I don't get stuck in the mud
Losing breath, losing sight
Losing peace, losing mind
I've lost my glow and it's getting dark
Somebody show me where to start
Back at square one again
I grit my teeth and cry to sleep again
This weight has been lifted off my chest
And I can finally breathe
...
I long to love like I did as a kid
I long to love like my mother did
I long to be free, I long to be happy
I long to hurt, so please tell me
Where did I go wrong?
Why am I craving this?
I'm tired of putting thoughts into songs
And I'm sick of trying to reminisce
I wish you'd die so I could be king
But instead I lack the strength to do anything
...
I told my loved ones I'd never go
I promised my friends I wouldn't die
I've convinced myself that I can be okay
But I don't know how to keep up
[Feedback]
Edit: please see comments for recipe. Note: I increased ingredients slightly scale it to a 9 inch dish. Maybe I should've used more dough.
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