I’m feeling so homesick
I recently moved from India to London for university and I’m struggling with homesickness way more than I expected.
I’ve only been here a few weeks and my parents have just gone back to India. Since they left, I’ve been crying constantly and I genuinely just want to go home. I miss everything about my life there, my family, my house, familiar food, people, routines, even really small everyday things I never thought I’d miss.
I thought moving to London for KCL would finally make me happy because I’d been feeling lonely and unhappy for quite a while before moving. I had this idea that I’d come here, start university, make friends and have this exciting new life. Instead I feel even more miserable than I did before.
I live in East London in a PG rather than student accommodation, quite far from uni. I live with a family and another couple and share a bathroom, and I really hate the living situation. Most people around me seem to live near uni with flatmates and are constantly going out, while I come back to my PG and feel completely alone. The evenings are especially horrible.
I’m also quite socially anxious and haven’t managed to make close friends at uni yet, which obviously makes the homesickness worse. I feel like I’m watching everyone else start their university lives while I’m just trying to get through the day.
I keep thinking that I made a huge mistake coming here and that I should’ve just stayed in India. I have to do my 4 year degree ,so the thought of staying here for the whole year till summer break let alone 4 years feels impossible right now.