Libido after PIO (does it get better?)
Hi everyone. I'm 24 (turning 25 in a few months), and I was diagnosed with primary ovarian insufficiency (POI) three years ago. In my case, it was something I was born with because I have mosaic Turner syndrome. (Most women have two X chromosomes (XX), but I have a mosaic chromosome pattern. Some of my cells have one X chromosome, some have the usual two X chromosomes, and some have three X chromosomes.)
One thing I've been struggling with is my libido.
A few months before I was diagnosed, I noticed that I started losing my sense of sexual desire and intimacy. Before that, I would get aroused quite easily. Then, gradually, it almost disappeared. This started before I even knew I had POl, so I don't think the diagnosis itself caused it.
I've been on HRT ever since. Right now | take Femoston 2/10 (2 mg estradiol every day, with 10 mg dydrogesterone during the second halt of the cycle).
Since my diagnosis, l've been single. I was also single before then, but back then I still had a normal libido. Now it's very difficult for me to feel aroused.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just overthinking this. I've read that people can experience different types of sexual desire. Some people have more spontaneous desire that seems to appear out of nowhere, while others experience desire only after emotional connection, affection, or other triggers.
Maybe I've simply shifted from the first type to the second as I've gotten older, rather than losing my libido completely. I'm not sure if that's what's happening, which is why I'm asking if anyone else with POI or Turner syndrome has experienced somethina similar.
Occasionally, I'll watch a TV show with a couple who have amazing chemistry, and I'll think, "Wow." Those feelings are still there somewhere, but they happen very rarely compared with how things used to be.
Over the past couple of months, after improving my diet and generally taking better care of myself, l've noticed a slight improvement, which gives me some hope. But I'm still worried that this might be permanent.
I know this is a very personal topic, and I'm sorry if it's TMI. I'm posting because I'm genuinely wondering if anyone else with POl or Turner syndrome has gone through something similar.
Did your libido ever come back? Did adjusting your HRT, changing your lifestyle, or anything else make a difference? Or is this something you've learned to live with?
I'd really appreciate hearing about your experiences.
Thank you.