u/illumemeayyyy94

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I chnaged my name on a messaging service that I use to contact family and my family memeber put my girl name in all caps in the message like imagine their stupid reaction when I chnage my name to my male name. The name is likea nick name for a girls name and isn't even masculine and they're already pulling this shit. God help me.

I chnaged my name on a messaging service that I use to contact family and my family memeber put my girl name in all caps in the message like imagine their stupid reaction when I chnage my name to my male name. The name is likea nick name for a girls name and isn't even masculine and they're already pulling this shit. God help me.

I came out to someone today and she was really understanding and supportive. She's going to try and find some support groups for me in the local area. It's made me think it wont be so bad coming out to others.

I'm still dreading telling my family but i'm much more relaxed about it now.

As the title says i'm so tired of having to go through all these thoughts and feelings it's wrecking me. My mental health isn't great anyway but i'm managing, I guess. I have a few issues with my life but the main one is being a trans man and having to bury my authentic self down because of various reasons, I think repressing your authentic self rots the soul.

How do people accept themselves and transition in this society? I'm impressed, honestly but it makes me feel like a coward.

I just don't know what to do, I know what I want and need to do but theres no way I can do it. I'm having thoughts of opting out quite often and I know its because of the dysphoria and being trans.

Honestly I don't think i'm articulating this very well but surely you all get the gist.