u/ilovepeanutbutteryay

No rant flair?

I go by he/him strictly. I'm a very binary trans man and I'm in stealth when possible because I pass fairly well. I hate it when they/them pronouns are used on me (unless the person using them doesn't know better) because to me that tells me more that people are uncomfortable viewing me as a boy than respecting me.

So many people do this and it's so awkward. "This is name. They love to do xyz and have an interest in blah blah blah, and they blah blah." Bro my pronouns are he/him stop complicating things. It's always so embarrassing too.

If I tell them I actually go by he/him and not they/them, they look at me, basically say "..." and use my pronouns once. Lol it's a little funny but also infuriating.

The worst part is that most of the people who do this are nonbinary and I respect their pronouns. I'm so tempted to pull the "she/her" card but that'd just make me an asshole and I like to respect people.

Very mild transphobia mentions, incase that's a trigger.

I want to live like a man, and I live like a man in my mind, but I know it'll never really be like that. I'm in stealth and I've been in stealth online for 4 years and in real life for just a year (to new people I meet), since coming out to family and close friends. The difficult part here is the online part, since I don't really have much friends in real life.

I know I'm not "lying", but at the same time most of these people are cis. They don't know what I feel and they would think I've been lying to them if I said I was trans after thinking I'm cis for x amount of time.

I don't want it to be that way, but I hate being trans. I hate it. I don't want to be a trans guy, I just want to be a guy and it seems like the only way that can be possible is if I tell people I'm cis because that's the world we live in.

I'm 13 and hit puberty rather young, but I'm noticing the effects more than anything right now and I don't know if this is just my dysphoria making me see things or if it's what's actually happening but my face shape is changing and my hips are just getting bigger and bigger and I swear to fucking god no one will ever take me seriously. I don't know what I'm talking about clearly, because I'm young.

Maybe I am confused, maybe I'm not. We'll see if I'm confused when it gets to the point where I can't look at myself in the mirror without breaking down because I'm getting awfully close.

And I don't want to make this anyones problem either, I don't want to talk about it. I have to though because I want to get on HRT and have my name legally changed before I graduate, and the only way to do that is if I talk to a professional. This part is a little ironic since I'm making a whole vent to post on the internet right now, but at least you can click off.

To some extent I feel like I'm only aromantic because I'm horrified of the idea of having to tell a partner that I'm trans, and I'm horrified at the idea of the reason not to have kids being because it's not biologically possible. It doesn't matter how much I love someone, I don't want to date them if they know I'm trans and I don't want to date them if they don't know I'm trans because I find that's important to disclose in a non-plantonic relationship.

Sorry this is kind of a mess. This is just a quarter of what's on my mind and I just want to get it off my chest some way.

very slight nsfw but taking no risks

I'm in stealth if I can help it, and I lie to people a lot. I don't want people to interpret me as trans, I want them to interpret me how they would any other boy. Though, I don't like the idea that I'm just digging the whole deeper so the bomb hits harder when I drop it.

I'll fall inlove with someone and they'll love me back and I'll be too guilty and embarrassed to tell them that I don't feel worthy of their love because I don't have what they think I do. I won't get a deeper voice, I won't get taller, and I surely won't be able to please them sexually, and of course I couldn't mention that 3 years ago when we first met.

What am I supposed to do? How am I not supposed to be guilty? "I've known you for 3 years and I've suggested to you that I'm cis several times, but really I'm trans. Hope you aren't mad." The fuck? And I know I can't drag this forever. I know I can't. The truth will come out and I think and worry about that everyday. I have nightmares about being clocked.

I've recently accepted that I've actually fallen in love with one of my OCs and I wasn't just dating her for shits and giggles. Whenever people ask me if I'm taken though, even online, I find it kind of difficult to say I am, even if I really want to. So I'm wondering, does anyone ever say they're taken by their F/O in a casual space? And how does it usually go?

Not necessarily where you reject agab, but where you just view yourself as the gender you're transitioning to at birth. I'm afab (fucking hate refering to myself with that term) but I really do just see myself as amab, not because I reject the standards or anything of the such, but because I just feel really connected to my masculinity to the point where I reject the idea that I was ever a girl or that I have the body of one, as well as my actual agab.

Please don't get the wrong idea from this post. I'm extremely dysphoric and disconnected from my feminity and that's why I'm like this, not because I don't want to associate myself with the trans community or something of the such because ironically, that's the one of the only reasons I use reddit lol. I'm a little scared of coming of like that, so just saying to be sure

Iwas on Pinterest and tell me why there are "transmasc haircuts." It's the stupidest shit and it makes me so dysphoric, especially because I happen to have one of those "transmasc haircuts." Can you fuck off? Since when were haircuts transcoded? If your hair is fluffy, fuck, you're trans. Sorry for having a layered haircut because yeah, that makes me trans. Do you like my transmasc hair? I love it. Can you guys see how transmasc I am with my transmasc haircut? Why are we stereotyping haircuts.

That is all. Please get rid of "transmasc haircuts" they are horrible, I hate them, I hate my hair and am convinced that nobody thinks I'm a cisguy anymore. Also, some of these were just completely average haircuts. What am I supposed to do? Get a buzz? I'm sure some mf could manage to make a buzz a "transmasc haircut", that's how stupid this shit is.

Goodbye