u/ilovezhonglitoomuch

Back when I was 14, I was pretty lonely and wanted to make friends, so I want on Roblox and played. I then met a guy who was 18. I became friends with him and later added him on Discord. After adding him, he asked for my age and I lied to him, telling him I was 16, when I was not.

We became close, but I gradually got more and more uncomfortable because we would look at things like sex toys, lubricants, fleshlights, or other things similar, and laugh about it. (Weird, I know. Not sure what was so funny.)

Later on, he would send me pornographic art and GIFs of anime characters and furry characters. (Ones I remember were Hatsune Miku and Vanny from FNAF: Security Breach) I was too nervous to tell him I was uncomfortable about it.

He would have me stay up late to call and talk to him, where he’d rant about his ex-girlfriend, him being a high school dropout, and his life at home. I remember accidentally talking over him while we were on a phone call with each other and he got angry at me. It was really draining.

After about three days of knowing him, he told me he had a crush on me. I was too scared to tell him the biggest reason as to why I didn’t want to be with him, so I told him I was uncomfortable with the two year age gap, and that we only knew each other for three days. He wasn’t mad about it, surprisingly, but was very obviously hurt by the fact that I rejected him.

We continued to talk afterwards, but it was clear he still liked me. For instance, he would send me videos that had captions like “send this to your crush,” or a video with the caption:

“Her: i cant rn im on my period”
“Me:”

And of Homelander from The Boys covered in blood. He sent me that after I told him that I was on my period.

He even bought me a game, Slime Rancher, after he shared his Steam library with me. I was very happy.

A few times while we would call each other, he would say the N-word and the F-slur. He is a straight, white man. He assumed I would be comfortable with him saying it because he thought I wasn’t “sensitive,” which is insane. He also assumed I’d be okay with it because I am black.
I am not okay with it.

The whole time during this, I would text another one of my friends and tell her what was happening between him and I. She would tell me to block him, since he can’t do anything about it. I would tell her that I was scared, in case he got angry. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized she was right, he couldn’t do anything about it.
So I finally blocked him, and left him for good. :)

My biggest questions out of all this are if I’m the one at fault, and if this whole thing was actually grooming or not.

I know that it was wrong of me to lie about my age, but I didn’t know things like that were going to happen. I just wanted to make friends.
I’m also unsure if it was grooming, since I did lie to him about my age, but I feel there were signs of grooming throughout that whole situation. I am still unsure.

i am currently watching a video made by DeadMeat (if you dont know who they are, they usually do kill counts on horror movies), and one of them is covering the movie Wrong Turn (2003).

as we all know, theres that scene in Corpse Party where Naomi, Yuka, and Mochida are hiding under the table in the butchering room, and Yoshikazu walks in with Seiko’s body, drops her body on the floor, and she starts bleeding from her mouth.

in Wrong Turn, 2-3(?) characters are hiding underneath a table as the killers walk into the room. one of the killers then drops another character’s corpse onto the floor, and the corpse then starts bleeding from their mouth.

the corpse even does the same thing Seiko’s corpse does in Corpse Party too, where the blood trails towards the characters under the table!!

AFAIK, every Corpse Party game (besides the 1996 version obv) has come out after 2003, so… it could be a possibility?

i swear that scene HAD to be inspired by Wrong Turn or something, because those scenes are down to a T! like, am i crazy or is this just a common thing that happens in horror media😭?

idk im getting all nerdy with this lolll

(the DeadMeat video is called “Wrong Turn (2003) KILL COUNT” if you want to see for yourself! timestamp is 7:13)
edit: oh fake gore warning if u watch the video⚠️

my mom has been really skeptical about what’s wrong with me recently, and tonight she’s been asking whats wrong with me. we got into a big argument today, which is why she’s asking.

i dont know whether or not i should tell her i cut myself. it’s been weighing on me for a couple months now. i’ve been doing it for years, but am now 2 weeks clean (yay).

i dont know how she’ll react, and i dont know what she’ll do.

the only person i’ve told (besides two close friends) is one of my sisters, and she was sad about it, but she wasn’t overbearing (if that’s the right word).

my mom is a very emotional person, so i dont know what to do. i’d like to get it off my chest, but i also don’t know if she’s going to do something i won’t like, like make me go to therapy or a mental health clinic.

(this is my first time posting here so i didnt know whether to tag this as “advice needed” or “talk/support/venting,” sorry… (-_-;))

edit: forgot to say she won’t stop questioning me about whats wrong with me, and really wants an answer

(this is my first reddit post so i sincerely apologize if i mess up anything!)

today (wednesday the 20th) my family and i lost our pet rabbit, elsie. she had surgery to remove a lump on her side, and once the surgery was complete, the vet informed us the surgery was done, but later, the vet called again to bring us the news of her passing. my sister (technically elsie’s owner), got the call and told everyone immediately. i didn’t know how to process it at first. everyone was crying, but i was not, and i felt like garbage for not crying. after about 10 minutes, i was bawling. i was mad because my family hadn’t taken me with them to take her to the vet, i was devastated because of her passing, i was guilty for not seeing her the night before, i was, and still am, all over the place.

we got her back in 2023 after her original owners gave her away because they were moving, and she was the best rabbit ever. she was so cuddly, sweet, and calm, and i always took photos of her whenever i could. we got her two days before my birthday and she felt like an early birthday gift, haha.

but anyway, one of the worst parts is that she has another rabbit who she was bonded with who is still alive. he was put up for adoption by his first family after he was abused and after his first his first mate(?) had died, and now, his new/second mate is gone. i feel horrible. he even has a bunny plushie to make him feel better after his first mate had passed, and now, we probably have to give the plush back to him.

i have been crying for hours. i even relapsed again as well, her passing just hit me so hard. i regret it, of course.
i dont know how to do this. she was loved by everyone in my family and everyone who met her, and i dont think ill ever get used to her not being here anymore. is there a way to.. heal? to cope? looking at photos/videos makes me sob, even seeing rabbit videos on tiktok or youtube makes me sob, just thinking about her makes me sob.
i miss her so much already, the little heart shaped spots on her body, her chunkiness, her overall demeanor, her black and white colors. i love that rabbit, and id do anything to get her back.🤍🖤