Ubos na. I liked the idea of being with her, but she's exhausting
We reconnected this year. Pero wala na 'ko sa Pinas. Nung una kaming nagkakilala, flirty na kami sa isa't-isa. Pero due to homesickness, her virtual companionship mattered a lot this time and I eventually asked her to be my partner.
I have many plans for my life. I have a solid career & I'm serious most of the time. I can take it easy from time to time naman pero migration work, work, adjustment abroad- hindi pwedeng hindi magseryoso.
Eh kaso this girl, 26 na parang highschool pa rin sa pagiging edgy. Her playful jokes were about decapitating me, cutting off my dick if she finds out cheating, feeding my flesh to pigs so no trace, etc.
Having a hard time leaving her kasi pinakilala n'ya na ko agad sa lahat. Naging close ko pa nga lola n'ya. Nakwento ko kase na yung 2 exes ko hindi naman naging proud na boyfriend nila ko. Malamya kasi 'ko eh. Kaya ginawa n'ya, pinakilala n'ya ko sa friends & family.
Hindi talag anormal yung jokes n'ya kaya I stopped talking to her after saying she legit scares me. She apologized many times. She said she's gonna make adjustments. She's been trying. Nagsisimba pa nga. Idk, seems sincere but I can't force myself to talk to her anymore.
Just a bit sad. Another failed relationship. Ultimately I just want a companion. No need for romance lol. Travel, eat good food, sex. That's it. No need to complicate life.
When I visit Asia next year, I was planning to bring her as +1 on a trip with friends. I was also planning to make her stay in my house before I bring her along with me wherever I end up in 3 years (still choosing which country to settle long term). But she randomly said umuwi na 'ko para makapagbugbugan kami.
Vulgar. I never introduced her to anyone. Goodness gracious. She said she's a geng-geng. I'm never entertaining anyone who fucking knows this term.