u/jakethelizard99

So im planning a backpacking trip for the week of the 27th of June thru the 4th of July. I was wondering if typically you can find day of accommodations in HF? Im not planning on having to stay anywhere but im taking the Amtrak in so possibility ill be late coming in and probably won't wanna hike at night to the shelter or if I decided to shorten up my trip to a 2 day in and out instead of the planned 3 day in and out.

What has yalls dosage experience been with these I bought two packs I would like to try a smaller light experience first with them to see how it is then a larger experience some time im wondering what good dosages for that would be thank you for your guidance.

M/24 girl was F/20. I was dating this girl for around 8 months, we literally clicked on every level, same favorite holiday, both loved the same music love the same type of movies. I was thinking about proposing in the next 2 months or so.

But she is somewhat anti many drugs, at least those that I don't tell him I'm going to do, I'm doing, and I am very accepting of drug use and use a good deal of weed from time to time as well as drink, and occasionally dabble with nicotine, but try not to really, as I've been addicted a few times now. Anyway, when we first started dating, I told her I had been sober from weed and nicotine, and drinking for about a year now. That was a lie about weed for sure, and close for nicotine and alcohol, I still was using weed every now and again. I really tried to put up an effort not to use any weed or alcohol since she was wanting to have both of use be completely sober.

This changed a bit when I turned 21 we agreed I would get drunk for my 21st and that went well, we continued drinking together on occasion but wouldn't let me use any weed or nicotine but I wasn't mad about the nicotine. I was also still using weed behind her back. She had this rule that I had to tell her everytime I wanted to use a drug or else she would get really mad. Then the big event happend during new years break. She went home to her parents for the break and worked while I stayed with a friend me and this friend drank most days over this break I didn't tell her. I also went to a party with some friends from freshman year I thought there was going to be another guy over too but that was not the case. So me and my girl friends from freshman year had a party where we drank and smoked and celebrated new years I slept over at the one girls house that was throwing the party on a seperate matress thrown in the basement all the girls stayed in her room sleep over style nothing happed infedelity wise.

Anyway she didn't find out about it for a good bit that we smoked at the party and that I lied about how much I drank I was very much shit faced but I promised to only drink 5 drinks but probably had at least 12. She found out about the smoking and drinking be cause I kept a shopping list of all the items I was going to bring to the party and it included weed which mad her the maddesst she was also mad about me staying over with only girls but I don't think she thinks I cheated at all since they are good friend she hasn't met them but I am not really able to cheat and I think she can sense/knows that. Anyway we worked through it and decided to stay together despite me being a lying son of a.

All was going good but then she recieved a diagnosis of POI (Primary Ovarian Insufficency) she went on HRT for estrogen and Progesterone this made her alot more emotional when she first started out and a bit more irratable too. She started talking with her therapist and she said that the therapist said we should break up and she agreed since she doesn't wanna be with a liar and we broke up. I was accepting in the moment cause I know I really did fuck up and cross so many boundaries. I really am having a hard time with this as I really beleived we were soul mates and really loved her. I really didn't think even if she found out about the drinking and smoking and staying over with girls that she would break up with me I was completely honest with her about it all when she found out and yeah.

I don't know im really having a hard time thinking about the future or trying to date anyone else I just don't wanna hurt anyone else like I did her. I don't know I feel so incomplete without her. I really wish I could have a do over of our relationship and just slap the shit out of myself and tell myself not to fucking touch a substance. How do I find peace and move on?