u/jammybadger123

Has anyone else been through the NHS’s talking therapy’s for OCD i just had my first over the phone appointment and i had said i have been struggling with intrusive thoughts since i was 6, I’m now 18 and they all revolve around contamination and health.

i said how i wash my hands constantly and am always thinking about germs and getting overwhelmed by them and how i can avoid being ill and that the thoughts are impossible to escape. i also experience intrusive thoughts around me dying, for example i was on the bus and i was convinced that the woman behind me would stab me.

Anyway i told her all my intrusive thoughts and stuff which was hard as ive never said them out loud before. when she asked me if i recite numbers in my head or check doors are locked i said ‘no i dont think so’ and then she said that she thinks i have health anxiety and not OCD which confused me because my gp (who has known me my entire life) had told me that she thinks i have it but cant diagnosed it so i should go down this route to get a diagnosis, but they have told me i just have health anxiety? Is health anxiety OCD or have i just been like drastically overreacting to my intrusive thoughts my entire life and i dont even have OCD. Also i would like to mention when she asked me if something triggered my intrusive thoughts i said no and that they had been there since can remember and that nothing triggered them they just started. Am i being insane

Has anyone else been through the NHS’s talking therapy’s for OCD i just had my first over the phone appointment and i had said i have been struggling with intrusive thoughts since i was 6, I’m now 18 and they all revolve around contamination and health.

i said how i wash my hands constantly and am always thinking about germs and getting overwhelmed by them and how i can avoid being ill and that the thoughts are impossible to escape. i also experience intrusive thoughts around me dying, for example i was on the bus and i was convinced that the woman behind me would stab me.

Anyway i told her all my intrusive thoughts and stuff which was hard as ive never said them out loud before. when she asked me if i recite numbers in my head or check doors are locked i said ‘no i dont think so’ and then she said that she thinks i have health anxiety and not OCD which confused me because my gp (who has known me my entire life) had told me that she thinks i have it but cant diagnosed it so i should go down this route to get a diagnosis, but they have told me i just have health anxiety? Is health anxiety OCD or have i just been like drastically overreacting to my intrusive thoughts my entire life and i dont even have OCD. Also i would like to mention when she asked me if something triggered my intrusive thoughts i said no and that they had been there since can remember and that nothing triggered them they just started. Am i being insane

So I’m going into my final year of sixth form this year. I’ve finally gotten an OCD diagnosis and am starting to understand myself more and because of this Ive told my friends on multiple occasions that I’ve been diagnosed with OCD and I thought this would help them understand my behaviour and why i have terrible attendance but its not really helped. About 2 months ago i had one of the worst flare ups I’ve ever had and had a month long breakdown and basically didn’t go to school for most of it i explained to them that I’m sorry I’m not in but my OCD has gotten worse they brushed it off said oh well and asked me to come in the next day and changed the conversation to themselves. And it happened again the other week i left my english lesson after having a panic attack because i had convinced myself that i had eaten something mouldy and had food poisoning (i didn’t) but then when i told them the next day why i had left i had said oh i had a panic attack i got really overstimulated they just told me that everyone gets overstimulated and that it’s only because I had a breakdown when i was 15 that i can just leave a class whenever i feel like it. i was so angry at them because they said they had wished they went insane so they could not come to school and i tried to argue with them and explain what OCD is but i just felt so defeated and angry like they think that because i have ocd that im lazy and can just skip school. they have never tried to understand why or ask how i am and its not like i can get new friends in school as theres not many people in my sixth form. Does anyone else find that people completely disregard them cause they make me feel entirely alone and that im completely overreacting to having OCD and getting overstimulated and that everyone deals with this and im just being dramatic.

So I’m going into my final year of sixth form this year. I’ve finally gotten an OCD diagnosis and am starting to understand myself more and because of this Ive told my friends on multiple occasions that I’ve been diagnosed with OCD and I thought this would help them understand my behaviour and why i have terrible attendance but its not really helped. About 2 months ago i had one of the worst flare ups I’ve ever had and had a month long breakdown and basically didn’t go to school for most of it i explained to them that I’m sorry I’m not in but my OCD has gotten worse they brushed it off said oh well and asked me to come in the next day and changed the conversation to themselves. And it happened again the other week i left my english lesson after having a panic attack because i had convinced myself that i had eaten something mouldy and had food poisoning (i didn’t) but then when i told them the next day why i had left i had said oh i had a panic attack i got really overstimulated they just told me that everyone gets overstimulated and that it’s only because I had a breakdown when i was 15 that i can just leave a class whenever i feel like it. i was so angry at them because they said they had wished they went insane so they could not come to school and i tried to argue with them and explain what OCD is but i just felt so defeated and angry like they think that because i have ocd that im lazy and can just skip school. they have never tried to understand why or ask how i am and its not like i can get new friends in school as theres not many people in my sixth form. Does anyone else find that people completely disregard them cause they make me feel entirely alone and that im completely overreacting to having OCD and getting overstimulated and that everyone deals with this and im just being dramatic.

Ive had OCD since i was 5 years old and I’m now 18 and its always been severe and i had a panic attack at school yesterday caused by an intrusive thought spiral and i ended up sat with one of the teachers that runs the sort of mental health department i haven’t been in it for over a year since i moved up to sixth form but she told me that when i first came to her when i was 13 I was a completely different person and that i was proof that things do get easier.
And it made me realise that 2 years ago i couldn’t leave my house for fear of dying or getting ill, i couldn’t eat most foods because i was scared they where contaminated i certainly couldn’t sit in a classroom for more than 5 minutes without having a panic attack. And that today I go to school as much as I’m able too i go to all my lessons and i sit through them and I’m not failing them i occasionally go out with my friends to the cinema i even invited them over for the day last week which is something i never ever thought i would do. I was always scared i would be stuck like that forever and yesterday’s panic attack made me think that i was still the same but then i took a step back and realised how much i have grown. I know my OCD will never go away and it will always be apart of me, but i was convinced at 15 that i would never be able to do anything with my life and it would never get easier, and in a way it didn’t get easier but i have become able to manage it and I’m proud of that.