u/jinshi-sama88

At least mostly normal people have a chance to get out of poverty, even if it involves working hard and having debt for a while. I realize the economy is shit rn and everyone is struggling, it’s a terrible situation for all of us.

I just wish I could actually have an ok shot of getting out of this hell hole, but it seems impossible at this point. I’m fucking tired of being socially stupid and not having a functioning body due to constant pain and fatigue.

I’ve tried college twice now and couldn’t do it. I’ve tried working several times and I can’t hold a job longer than a year before having a breakdown. It feels like no matter how hard I train myself to be normal and try to function in society in hopes of having a normal wage and life it always crashes down and fails.

I can’t even get on a housing list near me because only low income/disabled families and seniors qualify, I guess young single people are just left to die lol. I’m so fucking tired of this. I don’t want to be disabled. Everyone I know complains about living normally with full time jobs but they don’t realize how it’s a privilege to be able to function (or at least be tolerant, I recognize everybody is struggling with work rn and it is super hard, I just wish I don’t have to rely on the government..)

Living with family is hell for me. I haven’t been able to keep a proper routine because they always interrupt me asking for help with cleaning and help with cooking and obviously I can’t say no because I need to contribute somehow since I don’t have a job. It’s just super frustrating I wish I could be normal and have a full time job and my own apartment I’m sick of having to share I hate sharing.

All I want to do is have a scheduled time to cook and clean and exercise and spend the rest of the day drawing. I’m sick of having to bend for other fucking assholes.

How is this living 😭 I don’t want to be disabled. I’d give anything to be neurotypical and able bodied. I don’t have enough for groceries at all till next cheque so I’ll be living on rice till then 💔

I am on disability and I am bored af everyday. I used to draw daily but then my health got worse. I’ve been doing better lately but find myself doomscrolling. I am eager to learn new things, I don’t care how bad I am because I find learning about art and technique fun. I plan to study from books and youtube but mostly draw for fun too. I do notice my anatomy and perspective are not good at all though and want to study it for 2-3 hours a day at least so I can be productive and not bored doomscrolling anymore (I made a study plan too).

I hear a lot of people get don’t like long hours of study so I am wary though and want to know if people here may have other recommendations on whether to do more or less? Thanks again.

I am 300 pounds and embarrassed being a fat woman and I don’t want to inconvenience anyone by using the whole sidewalk. I want to walk again but I’m scared of seeing other people outside and want to minimize it. What time is usually ok for you guys? I’ll try different ones because obviously everywhere is different but I am not sure where to start.

I rlly wanna go to my first one it’s just a small one near where I live but I’m almost 300 pounds and I feel embarrassed especially as a woman. I literally never leave the house and I’ve been trying to lose weight but my medication makes it difficult lately and I’ve been rlly depressed and thought this would get me out walking but I’m worried ppl there r gonna judge me :( I probably sound ridiculous but I am so anxious I’m wondering if I should ask the coordinators to give my ticket to someone for free instead..