please help me decide po. received jo from iqor clark. whole package is ₱18,247. basic pay is ₱13,100. fresh grad po ako, no experience. been job hunting for 4 months na, no luck sa field ko or ibang office work. should i grab this na po? for orientation na on Oct 14. wala nang working sa family so badly need a job talaga. tmob metro account po ako na-assign. thank you so much po sa magsheshare ng opinion/advice.
22F. hello po. anyone may experience na magrequest for payment restructuring kay lazada fastcash under po ni juanhand? pumayag po ba sila? tysmia sa sasagot!
22F. help po. anyone na nakapag loan kay lazada fastcash under juanhand? napagbigyan po ba kayo for payment restructuring? hindi pa naman po ako od pero wala pa talaga pambayad sa due. can you share your experience po? thank you so much in advance sa sasagot.
22F, i am here again. thought i could finally start fresh, but of course an addict always ends up losing, over and over again. just last month i was on a winning streak, managed to pay off all my debts and was left with some extra that i could have put to good use. but, there will always be a but when it comes to gambling. i was not satisfied. i craved more. before i promised myself that paying off some of my debts would be enough, then i received more than that. IT WAS A TRAP.
a trap i knew very well, yet... NAGING TANGA NA NAMAN, BOBITA. just last week i played with the devil again, as expected i was left with nothing but regrets. just a few weeks earlier i could sleep peacefully cause i was already debt free. now my debts have tripled. like they say winnings are future losses, and most of the time, the losses only multiply. i just graduated last june, still unemployed nearing 2 months now. rejections after rejections add to the already heavy burden this addiction put on my mind and heart but i never learn. THIS FATE IS WORSE THAN DEATH. that's the only escape i can think of now. i must be overreacting or whatever, but i dread waking up every morning. i hate that i cry every night then fall asleep wishing i die in my sleep, only to be disappointed the next day. i feel like a working corpse only that my insides are rotting first, but on the outside i remain "me" cause i don't want to tell anyone. i should but i won't. yup, this is all on me. ALL ON ME.
and yes i know i am still very young, lots of opportunities may still come my way to rebuild what was lost. but i am afraid i am already too broken to try moving forward. I AM JUST TIRED. i wonder why i got here, why the fuck i am still here. i was not like this, well weren't we all? there is just no escape from this, yes?
hii, 22F here. ang agang nasira ng buhay ko. ang aga ko ring gustong sumuko. will be graduating in a few days, cum laude pa, yet... feeling ko ako yung pinakabobo sa lahat, na totoo naman sa lagay ko ngayon. i feel so empty right now, i don't even want to attend my graduation anymore. i just want to disappear, yung burado sana yung buong existence ko, kung may choice lang para mangyari 'yan. i can't even cry anymore, the tears won't just come. napagod na rin siguro.
what's worse is that naisugal ko lahat ng sinahod ko sa part time job ko sa loob ng ilang minuto, pero ang tagal kong hinintay na dumating yon. it was supposed to pay for a simple celebration after my graduation ceremony. pero ngayon, nganga. lahat sila umaasa... ako rin. hindi ko alam anong sasabihin ko, kung ano na namang idadahilan ko. hindi na ako nakaalis sa kalabaryo na 'to, may utang pang hindi nagpapatulog sa akin gabi-gabi.
i know all the right steps to do to get out of this, yet... yet every time i try to take just one step away from this curse, nothing. mas lalo lang nalulugmok. i am tired of hoping, kasi wala lang ding nangyayari. yung akala ko okay na, biglang hihilahin na naman ako pababa hanggang sa mas lumalalim, mas dumidilim na.
hindi na ako makahinga sa bigat pero wala akong mapagsabihan kasi hindi pa ako ready. i don't think i'll ever be ready. alam kong iyon yung tama pero bakit hindi ko magawa?? pagod na pagod na ako. sorry ma, pa. yung inaakala nilang anak na matino at matalino, wala na, matagal na at hindi ko na mababalik. suko na ako...