u/kittystarrx

So like idk how to explain this but I get like really confused when reading books because it’s kinda like overstimulating and I feel like I get lost in the words and keep reading the same sentences. I really found a book I want to read but I literally haven’t read a big book like this since I was 12 and I’m 15 now sorry if this was hard to understand. Is anyone else experiencing this?

Update! I was able to read a few chapters of the book I wanted 😸

So basically I got my cousin with her boyfriend (one of my best friends at the time!) (I’ll call him Tim) and ever since he has been nothing but mean to me. I’ve also been mean to him I admit but that’s because he started kinda just saying slightly mean things like when we had plans for me to dye his hair he was excited but then when he started dating my cousin he said she could do it and I would “purposely fuck it up”

Then my cousin and Tim ended up breaking up because me and my cousins other friends gave her advice because she was having problems with their relationship. And a month later they got back together just for Tim to tell everyone I broke them up on purpose

Then he tried setting me up with his friend as a date kinda and we talked for awhile and it was going okay but then it ended up going wrong because Tim told him I was mean and a bad person.
Then later Tim was hanging out with that friend(I’ll call him Jake) and my other close friend (ill call her Sarah) and a few other people and Jake was talking to Tim and Sarah about how he didn’t date me for my looks and I was a horrible person and instead of Tim even trying to redirect the conversation he stood their and said “no comment” to everything he said.
(Sarah told me this happened)

After that I stopped talking to Tim as much and my cousin and me got into a argument causing Tim to basically tell me we couldn’t talk and that’s hi RT my feelings so we ended up arguing on a phone call and calling each other names and then I thought it was over

About a week later me and my cousin started talking again and everything was fine! But then her and Tim broke up and Tim suddenly wanted to be my friend again and apologized for everything and I forgave him even tho I was still upset.

But then my cousin blocks him and tells me he was talking about me a lil and didn’t tell me what he was saying but that was enough to convince me to block him.

Then later my cousin tells me at a sleepover he called me “the ugliest girl in the world” and that he wouldn’t ever date me and he felt bad for Jake and stuff and how he was talking about dropping me for months and how I was rude and I was jealous of her
He said I was jealous of her because my cousin told him I used to bully her and call her ugly in 7th grade but I’m in 10th now and I’ve already apologized so many times for it. And my cousin also said that his other friend (illl call him Bob made a joke in front of her and Tim that I was obsessed with her and wanted to date her.

And yesterday my cousin and me were hanging out and she posted pics of us on TikTok and and Bob comments saying “her hair stylist needs to be locked up” and that really hurts because I did my own hair and I really thought it was cute and my cousin told me he says things like that alllll the time

Idk what to do I think the boys calling me ugly are pretty ugly themselves but I just want them to stop because I don’t even talk to them anymore but I want them to stop and my cousin doesn’t tell them to stop and it’s really getting to me because I’m kinda insecure and it puts me down ALOT.