u/koodust

i’ve always been so optimistic because i am so fortunate to have a great life. but recently i’ve taken a turn completely in the opposite direction and i’m so constantly anxious that the world is going to end OR the world is going to become hell to live on, very very soon.

i read an article from an ex-openAI employee, who said if ai continues to be built on and invested in, there’s a chance we could all be gone by “the end of the next decade” and i broke down. i have never had such a feeling of hopelessness wash over me. this wasn’t the start of it all but this was what made me truly feel completely helpless after days of misery.

i just feel like nothing i do will ever matter now because i might not even get to see 2050. ive been planning to build a tiny house with my mum on our family property but all the joy has been sucked out of that because i might not get to live in it long term. i’m in university getting my degree but once i’m done and i find a career, how long will i even be able to do anything in that career?? i finally have a boyfriend after years of no luck, we’re one year in, and you’re telling me i don’t get to spend a full lifetime with him?

not to mention the el niño that’s brewing in the pacific that’s about to slam my home country with a horrible summer of bushfires and death following europe. i’m so scared all the time and i can’t do anything without being petrified that i’ll die a slow and painful death in the next few years or that i’ll have to watch my family and pets go through that.

i have a generalised anxiety disorder and ive seen psychologists / therapists about these thought spirals in the past but they have never ever helped. i just want to skip to a different timeline or something because i cant handle hearing more and more terrible news all around the world that my life is probably going to be cut short and i just have to sit and wait around about it.

i have a class tomorrow but i really want a donut before i go where can i get one on campus

i am fully prepared for “don’t get in the water at all” comments but please fully read and consider my current situation.

i’m currently healing a navel piercing that is just over 8 months old. it’s just coming down from some pretty stubborn hyper-granulation issues and surprise surprise, my family booked a beach holiday for the next couple weeks!

our hotel has a swim-up bar (i presume chlorinated), and i just know my family will be wanting to go in at least once a day. there’s plenty of other activities planned but i know this was a big part of why they chose the hotel. from what i know, the beaches there are quite clean and this piercing has actually been ok in ocean water before before (fell in), but i don’t know if i want to risk it.

my question is - is there ANYTHING i can do to protect my piercing if i do in fact end up getting in the water briefly at any point? the trip wasn’t my choice but i really don’t want to waste my fam’s money because i’m too scared to get a little wet. i can definitely sit poolside for the bar but sitting on a boat while everyone else is snorkelling seems like a bit much for me.

any advice is appreciated!!

let me know if this isn’t the right place for this. i recently quoted a line from this movie to a childhood friend (who i had watched the movie with) and they had no idea what i was talking about.

the line i remember:

“i just want your phalanges on my epidermis 😧 i wanna increase your levels of oxytocin 😏”

my friend claims im literally making this up, but i remember this movie being the reason i had to look up what the word “epidermis” meant because i thought it was something inappropriate (given the tone of the quote)

other details:

- line was said by a woman. this character i believe was a stereotypical nerdy girl who was either attempting to flirt, fake flirting, or being envisioned by a male character seeing her as a love interest

- the “flirtatious, seductive woman” trope was heavily played up in this line specifically, i remember the word “oxytocin” was whispered

- i believe this line came after a slightly more casual seductive line with less over-the-top clinical language

- would have come out between the 90s - late 2000s

- i’m about 99% sure it was a live action comedy, family friendly so likely G, PG or MA rated

there’s a small chance that this has come from a random youtube video or a tv show and i’ve misremembered it, but since my friend and i used to watch the same movies over and over again it’s likely that it’s from one of our regular watches

let me know if i should add more details to make this any clearer, though this is about all i can remember for now. thanks!

i’m currently finishing up one of my online exams (open book) and cycling through my tabs of readings while completing it. obviously, as we are doing it online, we have access to all the tabs and the tutors all said it was encouraged to have the readings open for this exam.

my worry is that i had chatgpt open in another window for a completely different subject and cycled over it a few times during my exam. i had been asked by the teacher to use it for that class, i did not use it to cheat at all, im hoping to drop out of that class next sem as i hate using it.

i didn’t realise i’d been doing this until like halfway through the exam and now i’m super paranoid that they’re going to flag me because i don’t know how moodle works and whether they can track what tabs i had open. does anyone know how this works and if i have to do anything to ensure it doesn’t get misconstrued any way?