u/kuroneko_910

Rant incoming

Narc mother has gone into full on paranoia that no matter what I do or enjoy, it's the influence of that friend of mine and she lied to people saying that I have confessed to her about my friend manipulating me and influencing me???

How can someone be this much of a liar!! Hoping I can just leave this house soon, it's getting more and more suffocating each day. I would be enjoying my time, laughing at some memes or some comical movie and she would be kicking and screaming telling people about how I have been tainted and whatnot.

I don't like wearing traditional clothes all that much and she thinks that also is the influence of my friend.

So everyone was told to present themselves as a brand, i.e. describe their shining qualities like one would advertise a brand and mid saying my speech, I outright told the madam that I was nervous and I can't do this anymore. I felt so breathless while speaking and I couldn't even read the words I have wrote down. At that moment they genuinely looked like alien language to me.

I am so upset and freaked out. Everything about this feels straight out of a nightmare. Would love some advice on how to overcome this.

So everyone was told to present themselves as a brand, i.e. describe their shining qualities like one would advertise a brand and mid saying my speech, I outright told the madam that I was nervous and I can't do this anymore. I felt so breathless while speaking and I couldn't even read the words I have wrote down. At that moment they genuinely looked like alien language to me.

I am so upset and freaked out. Everything about this feels straight out of a nightmare. Would love some advice on how to overcome this.

Okay so, this started from when I was in kindergarten (right now I am 21). This bestfriend has been with me since we were like 2. Their family was going through some problems before so they had said and done some questionable things (mainly lying about me twice about things I didn't do) when we were kids. It's fine. It's like natural to do stupid things as kids.

Mum has always been insecure and narcissistic, infact she always projects her own inability to have friends and projects it on me, but she is especially hateful towards this one person. Thinking they changed my views and apparently I am becoming some "monster" because of them. She always verbally and physically abused me so the little respite I got was taken away too with the excuse of them being "my friend's influence". It's like she is the one who is actually obsessed with the friend.

She never sees me as my own person and anything I begin to like, she thinks it's because of that friend's influence. She even makes up lies about things that happened in the past. Even worse there is no way to prove that those didn't happen and my relatives are breathing down my neck too believing the lies she says.

That was like 8-10 years back, now it has started anew because in a discussion I said I support trans people and she went into full breakdown about how my friend ruined me. Even while I am at work she calls and says to cut off all contact with them.

I want to move out but I can't because I am saving up money to study abroad from next year.