u/ladylorelei0128

From what I've seen I believe I may have Estrogen Insensitivity Syndrome, I've looked at pics from before I started hrt and now. The only difference is I look almost a decade older. I can't see a specialist in my state because my insurance will not allow it and I wouldn't be able to afford it otherwise.

I've been on pills, patches, and currently injections, since 2019. I'm not more sensitive anywhere, my boobs haven't grown, my skin isn't softer, never got the overly emotional flood, and I feel dead inside. My question is:

If I do have EIS, is there anything I can do outside of surgery/ see an endocrinologist, to start seeing some results or am I screwed?

EDIT: So my E levels ranged between 117pg/ml and 226 between 2020 and 2026,last tested in February at 135pg/ml. My total testosterone ranged between .2pg/ml and 58pg/ml and all were done at troph. And the 58pg/ml was this past February.

So I(34 mtf) became friends with a guy(34) when we were both 18. He was smart, quick witted, and very accepting, until Ai got released he stopped looking into things himself and let Ai do all his thinking for him. He ran a dnd group irl which was completely written by chatgpt, then got offended when the group became less involved in his campaign. Any question he had, he would ask chatgpt. And it eventually led him down a rabbit hole of bigotry of all kinds. He started dropping the N words and other slurs like crazy, claiming "hitler was right for what he did to the Jews", calling me and other queer people "all groomers". He watched people like tucker carlson, jordan peterson, andrew tate, and ben shapiro. When i tried to get him to see how messed up the stuff he was saying and listening to was he would get pissed saying "I don't dont talk bad about things you like so stop doing it for things i like."

Until he started using chatgpt we used to debate just about everything when we were bored. While fact checking each other. Then we'd watch anime, write stories for our potential characters/ future campaigns, or play video games to unwind. He was legitimately a fun guy to hang out with.

But in the last few months of our friendship, i was driving him back and forth to work monday through friday often going out of my way to get him breakfast after dropping him off at work because he couldn't be bothered to wake up early enough to leave with enough time to get it on the way. Nor reimburse me for the gas he used that i put in the tank. I was and still am unable to work. Putting a non insignificant amount of my money in gas to make sure he could do so. At this time the only times i even left my house was to take him places. He then got into gambling, spending more money on his habit than than anything to the point he started borrowing money not just from me but other people he knew pay his rent and bills. Using a decent amount of it on his habit claiming that his roommates weren't pulling their weight. While he often spent the money, i know one of his roommate's was giving him directly, on his habit. Even talking her into giving him her entire check multiple times because they were so far behind on rent.

When his phone service was shut off i ended up paying to get it turned back on. But i didn't know at the time it was nearly $700 to do so. Said he'd pay me back a decent amount next check. It never came obviously. And the following week he had another friend do the same thing, because it had gotten shut off again, although i don't know how much he asked for that time.

I was supposed to move in with him, which is why i was helping him out so much. But after 3 months of being told i could move in next month, while the house i was and still am living in is condemned and his bigoted and hateful comments became more frequent and intense. He started talking down to me for helping him, using different slurs directed at me. So i dropped him off at his home and left. i got my number changed asap, and cut him off completely. No warning or anything, just ghosted him completely. The worst part was he was the first person in my life to treat me like an actual human being

so i had a friend who started becoming more openly racist and all the phobics using it all the time in casual conversation along with the "hard r" N word, to the point i caught myself nearly saying it a few times so i started hanging out with him less and less. Then he started directing his bigotry towards me. Which is when i went no contact with him. my therapist (black woman) says Ne*ro isn't bad, but to me it just seems just as racially charged as the other word. Is she right is it not a big deal?

if it matters I'm white and autistic. So I'm terrible with social cues so please be direct with me.