u/leftofthedial15

I had friends once, and my parents still think I do. I was super close with my friends. It was a small circle of friends, but we've all known each other since Kindergarten. We actually went to three different high schools between all of us, but stayed close throughout high school. We definitely hung out with each other more than others from our schools. They made friends at their schools, but I didn't. I can't. We all ended up at the same college and that's where it got bad.

I'm very introverted. I had absolutely no interest in going to bars or anything, and they knew that. I still got to hang out our a good bit our freshman year because we all lived on campus. Fast forward to the next year, and I'm living alone while they all lived in apartments together. They made those arrangements without me. When I brought it up, they had all already signed leases.

So they started doing things without me. Even stuff that I would have done. I might not want to go out, but I know I could make myself go to one of their places, even if there were a lot of people. But I wasn't invited. And they made absolutely no attempt to hide it. I don't use social media anymore. But seeing pictures from events that I know I could have gone to hurt. And I was living alone to deal with that pain.

Now they have new friends. I still speak to them infrequently, but I'm still not invited to anything.

I'm 29 now, still living with my parents like a pathetic piece of shit, and have somehow kept up the lie that I still see these people on a regular basis. My parents noticed that I had kind of stopped hanging out with them, and I made some shit up to placate them for the moment. Now I just say I'm going to hang out and just end up driving around for a while.

I have absolutely nothing else going for me. I'm bipolar and autistic, STILL haven't finished that degree. I'm on track to graduate this December with a stellar 2.1 GPA. Otherwise, I have no skills and no work history at all. So the future is looking bright!

I've already accepted that, given the position I'm in in life, that I'm probably fucked as far as having any semblance of a happy life goes. Not having any friends is just gonna make it worse.

Her reddit account

Does anyone know if she survived the transition? This woman should not be employed at UNO. or any university frankly, based on her behavior.

It won't take much reading through her comment history to find some WILDLY inappropriate comments directed towards students. And, perhaps more importantly, on more than one occasion she sked students to send her their student ID number here on reddit. I can't imagine UNO would like employees using third parties for things like that, and it may well be illegal.

The bottom line is that this woman needs to go. Hopefully bringing this to more people's attention can expedite that.

You can't talk about a DEMOCRAT who is the mayor of the largest city in the country because of that rule. I think it's ridiculous. The Mamdani endorsed candidates beat two incumbent Democrats last night. The fact that we can't talk about ANY of this is absurd.

If you go over to that cesspool, you won't find any mention of the DEMOCRATS who happen to be democratic socialists who won their primaries in New York, unseating two establishment Dems and defeating their chosen candidate in another.

In fact, you won't find any mention of AOC, Bernie, or Zohran. You can not so much as bring up the name of the fucking Mayor of New York.

Any and all discussion of democratic socialism is banned on that sub.

These same people whine about leftist purity tests.

If anyone more tech savvy than me wants to make a sub for registered Democrats who don't have their heads buried in the sand, I'd be happy to offer any help I can. Registered Democrats who are socialists or supporters of the campaigns of democratic socialists do not have a home on that sub. And the establishment Dems are trying to keep it that way in Congress too, but it's not going so well.

At the end of the day, these centrist Dems are just gonna have to get the fuck over it.

Edit: Uh oh, I think some of them might have found this post lol

I have a mild essential tremor. My doctor said it likely wouldn't get much worse, and it hasn't. It ONLY occcurs in my hands thankfully, as it affects several body parts for some people, and I do have propranolol to take as needed which helps some.

I'm stuck in life. 11 years into a degree that I truly could not care less about anymore. Trades seem like a "way out" (or way forward) but, the only one that really interests me at all is carpentry.

I'm guessing the answer is yes, and that it would prevent it. Seems like there's way too much fine motor skill involved. That would suck because my options are limited, but I figured I'd ask.

I will add that the article I linked includes symptoms such as not being able to hold a glass without spilling, and my tremor has never even been close to that bad.

Edit: I plan on finishing the degree regardless. Should have added that.

And I couldn't even make myself go. I fucking knew it.

If this seems familiar, it's because I made this post where a lot of you gave me so much support and encouragement.

I have no idea why I ever thought I was capable of doing this in the first place. I am in a very bad position in life. If you'd have told me ten years ago that this is where I'd be in life, I'd have gladly blown my brains out. Fuck this disease. It's undefeated so far, and it will always win.

I don't know how one could look at this and see it as anything but an abject failure. I didn't try. I didn't do anything. I fucking hate myself for being this way.

I don't know what the fuck I was thinking. I don't know why I thought I could actually be a functioning human being. I'm fucking 29 and living with my parents. I've never had a fucking job, and I'm finishing up a useless degree that I started 11 fucking years ago and honestly don't really care much

I don't even know why I got the interview. I have no job experience. None. At 29. What am I supposed to even talk about if they ask about past experiences? I don't know anything at all about jobs or interviews. There's no way I can do this. I don't know what the fuck I was thinking.

I don't know what to do and I'm freaking out. There's no way I'll sleep, and that sure won't help.

And of course none of this makes me feel any better in regard to the whole living at home at 29/college situation.

I'm fucking shaking as I'm typing this and just wondering why the fuck I thought I would ever be capable of something like this when there's always been something fucking wrong with me

Maybe this isn't the best place for this, but I can't post in suicidewatch where this probably belongs

Edit/update: 9:27 AM Tuesday. Should add that I got exactly zero hours of sleep last night

I've recently been getting very, very anxious and frankly scared about my future. I'm supposed to graduate in December, but we'll see. I was supposed to graduate in December 2024...and then December 2025 but had to drop out both semesters, and of course one of the courses I need is only offered in the Fall.

I'm 29 and autistic in addition to bipolar. I still live with my parents and am 100% financially dependent on them. I have also never had a job. At fucking 29.

The degree is in political science, but everything I ever saw myself doing in that field or related ones requires grad school/law school. I currently have a 2.1 GPA and can only raise it to a 2.2 max, so that's clearly no longer an option. Plus I'm not all that sure more school is a good idea considering this has taken me 11 years. Taking easy courses to boost my GPA also isn't financially feasible. I've done the math, and it would take 36 credits of a perfect GPA to even get back up to 2.5.

I really have no idea what to do. I've never had a job, and I don't have any useful skills. I've been told I write well. My grades on written assignments back that up, but I don't know how exactly I'd prove that. Otherwise, I wouldn't say there's anything I'm particularly good at. I have terrible, terrible social anxiety so a customer facing job would be hell. I'm getting bored just thinking about learning to code and have no interest at all in the tech industry. I've been thinking over the last few days trying to come up with some field/occupation that I feel I could be passionate about, and I'm coming up empty.

So that leaves me with....what? I seriously have no idea, and that's why I'm asking y'all. It's a longshot, but maybe your comments can help me figure something out.

I'm under no illusion that most people love, or even like, their jobs, and that's what scares me the most. Even if I can get a job that I can tolerate while not depressed, I know myself and know that in a depressive episode I will not be able to make myself get up and out of the house if I'm not at least a little bit interested. But it just seems like my options are so limited that it might be impossible to find something like that.

I'm 29 and will finally finish a degree that I started 11 fucking years ago. I finish in December. I did the math, and even if I made an A in every remaining class, I still finish with a 2.2 GPA. 11 years for that. And I know you probably mean well, but please don't tell me that sticking with it for 11 years is some kind of accomplishment. It feels a bit infantilizing in addition to the fact that I could not disagree more.

I also have bipolar disorder. I'm not sure if that's relevant at all, but I figured it might help people if they have suggestions. It also serves as a partial explanation of why I'm here :/

Anyway, I decided yesterday that since all of the careers I'd been interested in almost always required grad school, which is clearly no longer an option, that I don't need a "career" per se.

I don't need much. I'll live in a shoebox. I'll drive a shitty car. It's readily apparent to me now that finding some joy/purpose/fulfillment is much more important than finding a "real career". I'll do just about anything that pays the bills and is at least a little bit fulfilling.

Therein lies the problem. I'm not sure what kinds of jobs I should be looking for. You'd think it would become easier once I decided that I didn't give a shit about having an actual career, but I'm having a hard time finding anything or even knowing where to look.

If it helps, my interests are mainly fishing, photography, kayaking, and reading. I don't think I can really find a job in any of those areas, but that's ok.

Do y'all have any suggestions on where to look or start looking? Are there any strategies or something that can help me figure out what exactly might meet my criteria, most importantly the fulfilling part.