I don't know how to describe this feeling.
Every day I wake up and feel this void. I do everything I need to do just to prove to myself that I'm still sane, but deep down, in my subconscious mind, I know I just want this suffering to end.
But I have to get a job before I die. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I need to prove that I wasn't lazy, that I didn't just leech off my parents' money, with an engg degree that's the least I can do.
Man, I'm so out of my mind that I don't even know what I'm writing anymore. I just want to cease to exist.