u/liinz_leo

So I tfmr in May due to bilateral MCDK & now I’m currently 9w pregnant & they told me there’s basically extra fluid around the body in the transvaginal ultrasound & this could be indicative of a trisomy. I just can’t believe I’m back in this depressing place of torturous worry. I go for NIPT Monday but I really can’t even be hopeful. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me I feel like embarrassed that I can’t make a healthy baby. Meanwhile crackheads are. Anyway. Idk what I’m looking for here just getting it out.

So I TFMR at 21w 5/15 & the dr gave me meds to stop the lactation but like a month later I started leaking some out & it won’t stop. I’ve heard it’s hard to get pregnant while breastfeeding but I’m not sure how true it is. Have any of you had this happen & we’re still able to get pregnant before it went away? I really want to be able to get pregnant again in a reasonable amount of time.

Even though I still have a live (I assume) baby inside me I don’t feel like a mom at all. I found out Thursday that she has all sorts of issues that seem to be random. She’s got bilateral multi cystic kidneys & no bladder. Lucky me 🤦🏼‍♀️. Has anyone had a healthy pregnancy after any of these issues? I really want a baby now but I’m terrified of having this happen again but l don’t have time to waste. I’m going for D&E Friday. I just want her out & to be done with this now. I’m 40 & was going to be a FTM. I worried the entire 20 weeks & I cannot believe my worries have come true. 😣😭