i see people do it a lot, in oatmeal and such, so i tried today. its ok, will not do it again probably. i like to chew on bars
mostly strawberry bowl except the bar, which is bday cake flavor
i dont fully understand, so i hear all the time its dangerous, so if i drink some electrolyte drink every single time after bp, will thay combat it ? or is it something that persists, sorry im not phrasing this question right. i bp at least three times a day, i feel terrible all the time and i cant function right, im thinking maybe i should stock up on such drinks
i love it soo much, i need this vinyl
just turned 19 recently, that makes 7 years of this hell. i think its part of me now, if i quit what will i do ? life is so boring without it. my longest bp-free streak in the last 2 years is probablt 5 days max.
and if u have recovered after a long time, i want to know, does it feel like losing a part of u ? i cant change how i grew up, all these experiences is forever mine. kindof mourning my youth
im apathetic about it. generally i dont want to die but theres many long b/p days where im 10+ purges in completely disassociated and i dont care that im throwing up blood or that my heart is going crazy. i spend hundreds$$ on delivery even tho thats money i dont have to spend. at that point i dont care about consequences, it means nothing. sometimes i dont brush my teeth or clean up after. nasty i know. i pass out next to the mess, wake up feeling like shit. while cleaning im like fk me fk my life but then i do it again the next day anyway
this quest crispy line is unbeatable i wanna try pecan next
mind and body just refuses to shut off it’ll be 3am and i’ll still be awake thinking of b/ping. i love the weakness i get after a good purge, the emptiness the feeling like i’m about to faint. the sleep after is soooo good too. i’m desperate i wanna get better but i can’t sleep and it fucks up my recovery everytime i’m on a b/p free streak