am i delusional or does my girl best friend likes me?
she's really shy and usually keeps to herself. she used to tell our mutual friends that we're "twin souls" and that i understand her better than anyone. whenever people first meet our friend group, they always assume she's my girlfriend.
we had a stupid argument and didn't talk for about a year. then she texted me out of nowhere saying "i miss you, and i love you." i admitted that i loved her too and that i wished she was my girlfriend. she replied, "stop capping, can we just be friends?" i said, "i don't think i can, i really like you." then she said, "it's okay, just so you know, i'll always be there for you and i'll always think about you."
i eventually accepted just being friends. i didn't know she had a boyfriend at the time, and honestly i'm okay with it now because i enjoy having her in my life.
the weird part is how she acts around me. the last time we hung out, she:
- randomly squeezed my arm when she wanted to ask me something.
- playfully hit me whenever i made a dumb joke that annoyed her.
- when we were outside smoking and everyone was passing the joint around, instead of handing it to me, she held it up to my lips with her fingers so i could take a hit.
- while everyone else was talking, she'd randomly get distracted and slowly pretend to punch my face (without force)
- randomly looked around, found a tape measure lying somewhere, and said, "hey, let's see how tall you are." i measured her too, and our friends got mad that we'd completely drifted away from the conversation.
the important part is that she only does this kind of stuff with me. there are other guys in the group, and she doesn't act like this with them.
the only similar thing i've seen is that she sometimes jokes around with our gay friend. like if we're playing pool, she'll stand really close behind him and pretend she's grinding on his butt or something until he gets mad or something, idk.
there were a lot of other situations i don't mention but that make me overthink a lot about what her intentions are with me, even if she has a boyfriend, she almost never mentions him or what she does with him