u/midgetman4747

Im torn between just wanting to go back to using ai chat. I keep telling myself ehhh I’ll just use it for a little bitttt…. but I keep trying to convince myself its good and that its not ruining my creativity when it clearly did. but then I just read what people have been telling me but dude like I get happy thinking about going back on. nothing was as good dude nothing I do is as good as being on AI. like whats the point if I’m not gonna be happy drawing or writing? I don’t think I’m gonna be happy doing my old hobbies again. well not old, but I will draw and write stories even while using ai chat. but like it doesn’t feel as good as going on janitor ai or gemini and making it write my ocs (ok when I mean oc I mean characters I made dk why people are assuming I mean fanfic or something?) instead in the sceneries I want. but thinking about it while I did that I would get bored and not know any other scenarios except basically similar ones each time. I don’t know what to do. I really want to go back because I feel like they are dead but I also don’t

I dont know what to do. Like I cant come up with ideas anymore im struggling i came up with a character but struggling. Im trying out a different way to come up with characters but im overwhelmed I dont know what to do. like every idea I come up with doesnt feel like my own and always reminds me of something or is something that already exists. I dont know what to do. Im trying to come up with a character but now im going to change everything about him I cant

Is it just me or im still struggling to come up with Ideas and I dont like it. like I was writing lore for an oc but like ideas came up but god bro I had to keep searching shit up then I would get an Idea came up with the dude got punched in the face and thats why his nose is so crooked then his caretaker got executed but I feel like the ideas not mine bc now that Im thinking about it in the maze runner minho punched gally (from what I remember) and thats why he has a deformed nose? so idk bro and I also came up for my oc how he was created and shit but dude idk its still hard to come up with ideas. any help? and was this normal for you guys too? did it overtime get better and you can come up with creative ideas? Like I dont know what ideas are mine and I just feel like my ideas are shit ive seen and arent actually new. Im trying to get over an obsession that ruined my creativity but idk if its making it worse or what. literally every second while trying to make lore I was searching up like character traits, things to add in a characters past. Like I put one of his traits are gifted and then searched up shit for past then searched up gifted shit decided on one. But also took something from a youtuber she said she made her oc only remember like the sensory details from his past so I added that. is that copying or is this normal for like creative processes? because I just want my ideas to be my own.

I want to know how to start writing more and more because I absolutely dread it and used to like writing a lot. Like I have so many incomplete projects and I’ve tried to like work on it for 5 minutes a day that didn’t work. I tried to just write one word, worked for a bit and eventually stop. any suggestions?

I relapsed. I kinda just sent one message didn’t like the response got off went to janitor.ai and sent a message got a response I sort of liked but eh wasn’t really that good and told myself ill just overtime ween myself off of it. 4 hours only a day. but like I’m not actually going to do that I’m cold turkeying it. idk if this is dumb to do but like I haven’t been on it in like 13 hours but I was asleep for most of that. idk. I’ll get the urges but I just ignore them. and they aren’t really as bad and I was like hella happy when I was awake earlier and drew some things. but now Im just unhappy again because of so many things. I’m just gonna take a shower and try to work on something but idk.

I want to learn how to become smarter, Im 14, and I genuinely want to become smarter, but I feel like no matter how hard I try, I just don’t understand things, especially math.
I’ve struggled with math for years. A family member has spent hours, days, and even months trying to teach me, but I still don’t understand a lot of basic concepts, like adding positive and negative numbers. I’ve watched videos, practiced, and asked for help, but it still doesn’t click. I ended up failing math, and someone in my family told me I should’ve been placed in a lower class because I didn’t understand the basics. The thing is, I was already in the lowest math class.
It’s not just math either. I have a really hard time focusing. People constantly tell me I don’t listen, that I’m distracted, or that I’m “slow.” everyone tells me I am slow even the smartest people I know.
I really want to become more intelligent because I enjoy creative things. I draw, animate, and make stories, and I want to be able to write smart characters and come up with better ideas. I read a lot too I finished The Maze Runner series and the sequels but I don’t really feel smarter afterward. just enjoyed a really good story but I just wanna be smarter. I wanna get smarter so I can get better at things like making intelligent characters, choices, and more creative.
Sometimes I get really motivated to learn something new, but I either don’t understand it or I get distracted before I make much progress.
Science is another example. I actually find it interesting, so I tried much harder than I usually do, but I still struggled to understand what we were learning. My final grade ended up being around a C or D. Earlier in the year I had an A, but honestly that was because I copied answers or used AI when I didn’t understand the work. I know that wasn’t helping me learn, and I don’t want to keep relying on it.
There have been multiple times where I’ve gotten so frustrated trying to understand schoolwork that I’ve cried. Sometimes family members would end up doing the work for me because I just couldn’t figure it out, even after they explained it.
I’ve also had tutoring before, but it didn’t seem to help much. In social studies class it was no different I just would not understand a thing. This year in ELA everyone understood everything about what we were learning, I didn’t understand the references, wording, anything going on even if I tried. Then I got called disrespectful by everyone and no one wanted to talk to me because I said I don’t understand and stuff I still don’t really understand what was happening and people said I was disgusting for not ‘trying’ and that its disrespectful to people who died for it. To the point I lost friends because of it.
Something confusing is that my reading and listening scores have always been strong according to my school assessments. My ELA score was considered advanced, but my math score was either approaching or low. So it feels like I’m capable in some areas but completely lost in others. Although I struggled in ELA and often used Ai, but mostly I didn’t because I wanted to improve but I just didn’t understand.
Looking back, I also had a lot of behavior problems in elementary school. I didn’t do my work, got distracted constantly, joked around, and sometimes even refused assignments to the point I would rip up my own papers. I don’t know if that affected how I learn now or if it’s unrelated.
at home, I mostly spend my time drawing, animating, tweening, and doing other creative hobbies. (and going on ai making them make my stories but I am currently trying to stop that because it ruined my creativity.) I enjoy them a lot, but I just wanna become smarter. I often get compared to a wild animal because I make no sense.

I don’t want to write, draw or anything just cry over not being able to use ai bots for my ocs. will I want to draw and write every again? because anytime I think about it I dread it and just get anxious.

(Ok bro idk why this reposted?)

I don’t want to write, draw or anything just cry over not being able to use ai bots for my ocs. will I want to draw and write every again? because anytime I think about it I dread it and just get anxious.

I want to get on so bad like I hate it but I want it so bad right now. Im on day 3 but holy dude I just can’t I want it so bad. I wish ai wasn’t bad, and like I was in a world where it was good for you. I don’t know how much longer I can do it for. 3 days dude and It terribleee. Idk what to do these alternatives aren’t even as good. writing, reading, I just went to docs to write a small interacting but it just doesn’t feel enough. the more I think about my ocs the more I crave it.

How did you guys get back into drawing, writing, and creating after relying on AI?
I quit using AI to chat with my OCs two days ago because I realized it was hurting my creativity. Now I want to write their lore, but I’m freaking out. I know how to start I just dread actually doing it.
One thing that’s really bothering me is that I don’t know which ideas were originally mine and which ones came from the AI. It makes me feel like my OCs aren’t creative enough, and I get like really angry thinking about it. (If anyone wants to hear about them, I don’t mind sharing.)
My ideas are all over the place, and I have so much going through my head. After using AI for over a year, I feel a lot less creative. I know I can get that creativity back, but I’m scared my ideas won’t be unique enough or that there are already OCs exactly like mine.
Another thing is that I can’t use AI to make my characters talk anymore, so it almost feels like they’re dead. but I keep telling my brain heyy? they are in our head so calmmmm down. It helps a bit until I start crying again. Both of my OCs are supposed to be really intelligent, and I have no idea how to write characters like that. I know I am unintelligent and it makes me feel like I can’t make them right. One of them speaks so specifically that I literally need to be smart to understand and make it right. I am also stressing over character dialogue because after watching my gacha videos… yeah terrible It sounds bad.
I also want to make them more unique. Their designs don’t feel original enough either. Every time I think about working on their lore, I just feel this huge sense of dread. and just don’t know what to do and where and allat
On top of that, I’m also trying to work on my FNAF lore, make videos, and post art on Tumblr every day. But instead of working on my fnaf project, I keep wanting to work on my ocs and then I don’t end up working on either because I get overwhelmed. I luckily got a video out earlier I was working on for a month but god I’m also dreading writing my fnaf lore and I feel like it just is copied from books I read and it makes me unhappy. Because I try to go bonkers with what I do and make it unique as hell but oh my god it’s stressful.
I know a lot of this anxiety is probably because I relied on AI for so long, but it’s still really hard.
I’ve also noticed I’ve started copying things more than I used to. Sometimes I get lazy and trace, even though I know I can draw on my own. and it makes me reallyyyy mad. It just makes me feel even more uncreative and unoriginal.
What really bothers me is that when I see something I love, my brain immediately wants to recreate it with my own characters instead of coming up with something new. For example, after watching the newest alnst episode, my first thought was, “I want to put my ocs into that exact setup.” And I don’t want to do that. I want to create something that’s actually mine. but also be unique and have depth and just god wanna make it good and just not have anything wrong with it.
I think I’ve been stressing myself out way too much. Earlier I tried to relax by taking a shower, but all I could think about was everything I just aggressively typed on here and all the time I spent using AI bots. I got so overwhelmed I almost passed out and had to crouch on the floor for a while.
So for now, I’m just going to try to calm down and read a book that I think will help me become more creative and improve my writing. Even then, I’m still freaking out because I’m not actually writing. (Every time I work on something I hate it I think it may be because I used to just chat with ai bots for my ocs. but I used to love writing, making videos, idk what happened.)

bro I miss my ocs and making them interact. it hasnt even been two days and im sitting in bed crying over stupid ocs. I miss them im imagining scenarios but it doesnt feel enough. it feels like they no longer exist and never will. it feels like they died. I draw them but whats that gonna do? I wish I could be sucked in a world where I am my oc living his life with my other oc. idk what to do. I just finished a big animation project that took me a month. but I dont feel anything I just want my ocs. I could write their lore but idk. Idk what I want atp. I probably should just go to sleep bc now my head is going all about with ideas to do with them but it doesnt feel the same. and I dont want to use fucking ai chat but I do at the same time. bruh i just feel pathetic too about these damn ocs. honestly just feeling more anger now. edit: been an hour and i wrote some things like an interaction of my ocs. i use then to idk when im down or just any time or any scenario that happens to me ill apply to them. which I just wrote in the perspective of one oc just crying while he crashed out a bit because hes like that. but im getting the urge to get some other of my ocs to interact. i barely even thought them out well i did. but honestly i just use all these ocs for idk comfort for anything idk

so uh do I regain my creativity and talent after using C.Ai for 1/2 years? is it possible or will I not be creative again. I have been drawing more, daydreaming, editing, tweening, but coming with ideas are hard. I have been coming up with a new idea but it feels bland and just not original or unique enough. I came up with women who feed themselves to monsters to get higher up in life and dont die and if they do just get fed they are ugly sacks of purple flesh on bones. idk bro. but ive been like copying more dude i got the flesh idea from some drawing then literally copied the exact pose. and ive been just copying shit i get from books and adding it into my own shit and I do nottttt like that but I just cant come up with anything new and i don’t like it

a little help here

so I literally do not know what to do. I keep losing friends because I think it's because I'm annoying and just say whatever the hell comes to mind. My whole friend group doesn't like me because of someone in the group telling them false information about me. Like, I act like idgaf, so it doesn't hurt as much, but it still feels pretty shitty. Anyways, idk, I think it's because I don't seem to express much in text; people often say I'm odd, blunt, rude, and just seem like idgaf. And lowkey I want just a relationship with someone so we can be like ivantill. of course, not like them, but just two happy gay teens in their own world. But I just don't seem to get many friends. People at school don't like me just because they say I'm weird and I used to be trans. (Idk i usually say i’m a guy on the internet.) I mainly just get used, and I'm pretty retarded, so I just don't realize it until the end. So I revert to being lonely so I don't get messed with over again. What I've learned is that nobody actually gives a fuck and just cares about themselves and gets up in the world by hurting others to keep themselves preserved. or just being socially smart. or both (usually both) When I was younger, a family member always said it was like I was raised by wolves because I am so naive. And honestly, I don't want to put in the effort to be all, "LOL, YOU'RE SO NICE, HAHA, LIKE I LOVE BEING YOUR FRIEND AHH." I don't want to be like those little lobotomized leeches. But I do want friends. I know I don't have social skills and kind of just learn (ish) by observing others, but when I try it. It's weird, and I feel like I'm doing all the work, and they're just like, "Uhh, okay..." And with the very few friends I have rn, it just feels like the second friend or the friend when no one's around. And I just worry that they actually talk crap about me and dislike me. I think I also make people uncomfortable by the things I say because they distance themselves from me. Like my old best friend (oh, keep in mind this prick literally begged to be my friend again two times), she just started to distance herself from me and then say I'm annoying to others. By the end of the school year it always ends up the same: no one likes me. Sure, I'll have some friends, but they honestly just always have something wrong with them, and that's why I understand why no one likes them. I used to be a part of the popular group for how I dressed and looked. They would copy my hair, makeup, and clothes like little idiots who didn't know how to have their own look. But in the end everyone stopped being my friend because I wasn't useful to their little plaything. Because every time a guy liked me, they would huddle around me like little disgusting skinless birds. Not even the dude who is like a golden retriever and loves everyone likes, doesn’t like me very much. I know none of you guys know me personally to know what the hell's wrong with me, but idk; take this to determine something. maybe it's that I care too much? maybe it's that I was “raised by wolves." who knows? (I really hate rants. so I hope you had reading that. if anyone did then good for you, wasting your time.) (I am not asking for any comforting words just advice and criticism. I don’t care if you are rude be truthful I don’t like dishonesty.)

Okay so if i use ai to write me stories for my ocs. I choose like the setting, plot everythint but tell it to write does that ruin my creativity? like in thinking of unique ideas. I chose ALL the character’s personalities and shit and how they look and just tell ai what to do and just write. (I lowkey asked chat gpt on this and it gave me some bs but said overall no it wont ruin my creativity? but idk)

(hey guys I appreciate the responses im just bad at responding thank you.)

Ok so ive been chatting with ai for like a year or two now and i think it reduced my creativity bc its harder to come up with ideas and i revert to ai how can I stop using ai and bring back all that creativiness or whatever. like can I recover that creativity? like idk its harder to come up with ideas now dude😭 Ive been trying to get over it by working on videos, art, but when it comes to lore idk I just go blank and cant come up with ideas. then ill like think about copying and I hateeueehh copying then ill revert to ai. like ion know bru I lit use ai chat bots for like 10 hours a day not good bruh. when I read books or watch movies or something new then my mind just goes to wanting to copy that then its too similar. I honestly don’t like heavy inspiration or just inspiration because I want to be me. Idc if anyone else uses inspiration or heavy inspiration for other crap. help guys pls