u/mmcguinn9402

I am a severely humbled man. My TBI and the associated seizures, memory loss, confusion, and all the things you all know too much about... it's humbling.

My only known trigger is stress, and it definitely is one.

This condition has transformed my life in so many ways:

1. I pray and meditate daily. It took years to build the discipline to actually do it, but I have, and it is certainly everything that everyone talked it up to be.

2. I am grateful for any day or moment that I wake up with a clear mind and seizure-free. I have cried far too many times at the awareness of my own cognitive issues.

3. Spiritually, I've been searching, and I've been finding. My peace, awe, and spirituality come from looking at the wonders of the universe and stars. Developments in quantum physics and philosophy in the last 15 years are a frighteningly wonderful roller coaster of a dive. And one that’s left me better off.

4. I finally quit drinking. Thank God. No, it wasn’t easy for me. Both of my parents are/were alcoholics, along with all of my family. If it weren’t for epilepsy, I would certainly be drinking myself to death slowly.

The sharpest knives cut the deepest. As with many of the hardest lessons in life, with this condition comes the chance at some very hard-earned wisdom that most people never have the chance to taste.

Taste it. Breathe deep. Have a laugh. Eat something delicious.

Be well, friends.

Can I see a picture of a rocket you landed on the moon without using cheats?

I guess if any cheats are used only infinite build area

Show me some cool rockets!!

I wrote a letter to myself, telling myself how good i have been doing, and how at peace I am.

Its for the next life wrecking cluster of tonic clonics that i hope to never have.

After a cluster, it takes weeks for my recovery. Terrible short term memory, asking the same questions, to be honest i need a caretaker in these times. And that hurts, it shouldn’t be humiliating but it is.

Im always just so morbidly sad post ictal and i worry about dying, i feel i will never come back to normal.

I’ve cried many times sitting alone, just trying to come up with one cool and original idea, and failed. Dark times.

But i do!! Im on a record run right now for no seizures (90 days 🎉)

Im more in tune with God and the universe than i have ever been, or ever imagined i would be.

I quit drinking, started meditating as often as possible, constant pray and intentional kindness. I feel amazing.

And i wrote a detailed letter to myself saying all of that. Telling myself not to give up and its okay to be sad but i have a long record of doing the impossible and oressing forward.

I told my sister where I keep it, and to make sure I get it when doomsday strikes again.

I hope it helps, i kinda think it will🙏

Be well friends