u/moxxwoxx

It is so nice to find a community for once that treats this condition like an actual trauma disorder. Its been so hard to find a community that actually understands what it’s like to have the extreme lows that DID can bring in a persons life. After browsing here for maybe 5 minutes, I realized for once it actually felt like my experiences were real and valid, because I see people here talking about things I experience.

I recently started specialized part therapy and it has helped me so much. Seeing that it helps you guys too makes me really hopeful. My DID is debilitating and I constantly will forget entire therapy sessions because of it (which someone here made a post about!!! I relate so hard to the entire post, Im so glad you shared it), which makes recovery incredibly hard. I’m glad the symptoms I always consider “too tame to be DID” are in fact shared by you guys here. I always play my symptoms down because people online seem to have it much more together with their parts, being able to talk to them and have headspaces, etc, while I have nothing. Thank
you all for sharing your experiences!! It helps more people than you know!!

I honestly never thought I would ever try to talk to my mother about my DID again after I had tried to after just getting used to living with parts as a kid (with help from my therapist), but that changed today and I am really shocked at how it went.

I have been avoiding it for a while. One of my parts who hadn’t been active in around 2 years started fronting and it was his idea to talk with my mother about it which both me and my partner shut down after looking at this sub and other peoples experiences with it. My mom was a large part of my trauma and I never felt really close with her or ever bonded with her so I felt I couldn’t, but as we have been becoming closer, I’ve been realizing I cannot talk about my problems without mentioning my DID. It is part of my life and a lot of my daily struggles are caused by it. So I guess my part decided he would talk to her anyway, and then suddenly I was there, sitting talking to my mother about everything. Why I felt so strongly like a man on and off throughout my teens (caused by male identifying parts), why I acted the way I did and lashed out, everything. It all just came out. And she actually listened for once. She told me that she loved me, and all of my parts.

I feel so strange. This is all ive ever wanted to hear from her for so long. I am hiding nothing from her now, and we used to be BAD. Like, really bad, I couldn’t talk to her without getting incredibly triggered. I am so surprised that she is understanding to me. I guess she sees I really need the support. I just wanted to share this here because I feel like someone out there will need the push to communicate with someone important, and seeing all bad stories is never good. Sometimes good things happen :)