u/mtok209

(TL): Turkish

I realized that in order for me to obtain full fluency in my Turkish, my heritage language, I literally have to learn thousands of different ways to construct sentences and phrase things. It feels like an insurmountable task for me, like how do I learn and remember all of that? I’ve begun to inspect my own native language, english, on a deeper level and every day I just notice so much nuance and detail that I wouldn’t even know about in Turkish. I know that native Turkish speakers make grammar mistakes too and that I will never be perfect, but I just don’t want to sound like a complete non-turk or someone who makes mistakes all the time when they’re speaking. Other diaspora kids that speak fluently tell me I “speak Turkish with English logic” and I honestly feel very shameful and bitter about it. I’m still in my mid teens. Is it too late for me to sound natural? How do I figure out how to phrase things naturally and construct complex sentences at a similar level that I do in English? I’m currently at around B1 speaking and can hold every day conversations comfortably from my exposure at home.

I'm starting Somatic Experiencing therapy soon. I want to know what it felt like for others who went through the same therapy and what it might feel like for me before and after. For context, I have Dorsal Vagal Shutdown, a dysfunctional PFC, and a dysfunctional hippocampus as well.

I from a fully Turkish family, and according to my maternal great grandmother her side of the family migrated from modern-day Turkmenistan. Which test is better for determining my ethnicity estimates?

Also, is there anything to be concerned about with the 23&Me security issues?

I’m looking for something that hits late at night, is chill, emotional, or makes you think.

Songs with similar vibes that I like:

1. Sing about me I’m dying of thirst by kendrick
2. Fusion of the soul x1 by The12Apostle
3. Moonlight on the river by mac demarco
4. Paradise by sade
5. Sky’s the limit by notorious b.i.g.
6. Rumba tumba by govi
7. Ma go by moji
8. Show me how by men i trust

For background, I’m Turkish.

I’ve been asked if I’m Arab, if I speak Spanish, if I’m “an Islam,” etc. Moreover, when talking with people in daily life it’s very apparent to me that people don’t even know what an Arab vs Muslim is.

Why is it so difficult for people to have a basic concept of geography and ethnicity? How can you not even know how to refer to someone’s religion in this era of information? It’s so frustrating.