I fucking hate them.
The only reason I don't want them dead is that I am still under their care; they're my parents and I financially need them. Once I build my life, I hope that they'll die and burn in hell forever. They fucked up my life. They're a goddamn disappointment to the human race; they're not just bad parents, but they're bad fucking people. They're miserable, and they just fill me with their foolish life.
Everything they were involved in, it was nothing but a disappointment. A failure, everything they did was just to crush my enthusiasm and then not care. Not to mention the fact that they're genetically flawed. I don't understand how you can reproduce in such filth when people like you deserve to die and go to hell. People like me don't deserve to be the offspring of bastards like you. It's not a mistake to want more than this, because I just wanted a normal life. Not a life of disappointment filled with your disgusting lies and idiocy. No one can call me selfish, no one can hold me accountable for wanting this. Yes, I have the right to it more than anyone else.
How can I be their son? They're the same people who I "love" and smile at, but I don't want to. This is sad; I didn't want them to be like this but fuck, they just can't change. They're so fucking stupid; the only thing that they care about is themselves, and they just don't give a fuck about me. They're not even trying to change.
But no, they're just so fucking stupid that they're not even capable of changing. I don't want to do it—harm them. I don't want to just break things in the house or fucking psychologically ruin them, but that's the only way. If I do that, I'll lose everything, including my personality. I will not look at myself the same way anymore. I'm a goddamn horrible person with a horrible life, and I will make them pay for it. Go to hell, sons of bitches.