u/naturalbornstarr

i want to be transparent and honest. this illness is so soul crushing it makes you wonder what you’ve done in a past life to be here. it’s taken everything from me, my weight, my eyes are blurry, i never get the sensation of being tired so i struggle to fall asleep, my boobs have become severely uneven two different cup sizes, anxiety depression apathy, no sex drive you’re watching life move on around you while you’re trying to just get yours back. my friends are graduating college and getting cars and i’m working and spending all my paychecks to fix my life and stomach with my guarantee it will even work.

i do want to ask what you all think of religion? i mean how do you continue to have faith because im sure some of you just like me were christian muslim buddhist whatever but you have to wonder about the contrast between you and other peoples life’s. this sibo has made me really sit and think about how bias religion is and contradictory. when people say god is good to them but other peoples life’s couldn’t be any more far away from it really makes you think why some people’s prayers get answered while others do not and why if someone had so much power they don’t make everything equal.

don’t get me wrong, i understand life needs duality a balance of light and dark. but this world and this life is cruel and i think the truth is there is no god. my abusive ex is free and doesn’t have to think twice about what he eats or what his stools are going to look like that day but here i am a good person, missing who i was two years ago. i’m not saying not to believe things workout but i want christian’s to stop forcing they’re religion on people. life picks and chooses who it wants things to work out for. nobody wants to hear god is putting you through a test of faith and all that other b.s because the next question i would ask is.. why test us at all? taking away someone’s life and happiness all for a “ test “ is cruel and to be quite frank , evil and makes absolutely no sense. living like this your happiness is in your past leaving you to be bitter with the present. so my advice to everyone on here is to put your faith in yourself and keep trying. all you have is yourself.

sincerely, your ex christian

how did it turn out for you guys if you ever did this spell?

So a few days ago i did a transmutation spell kind of like warding my name where people who sent me negative energy is transmuted into good things for me etc. so the next day my ex called me and said his mirror fell of the wall and his stomach was hurting blah blah blah and that same day i found $20. anywho, my ex lives in my neighborhood and we have a very toxic history so im walking and i SWEAR i see him and its the same car and it looks like im inside the car so i text him and im like why why are you trying to run me off the road and long story short yall hes literally at work not even near where we live at and he sent me proof. i dont he linking with him

or anything but what could this mean and what should i do ?