u/nila-princess24

Today was my first day of Cosmetology classes and I feel so proud of myself 🥰

Ever since I was a kid I always felt different in school settings and at home. When it came to school I was always picked on all the time from grade school up to high school and I was the quiet kid and when I did speak about some of my special interests or if I showed them to classmates I got laughed at, everyone in my middle school in my grade hated me and I didn’t know why, middle school was the worse and most of my memories of constant bullying came from middle school. I always needed extra help in class especially in subjects like Reading and Math. When I wasn’t in school I was at home and that wasn’t good either I was always on edge at home and in school I have been manipulated, gaslighted, emotionally neglected, deprived of physical touch and words of affirmation, very low self esteem/confidence.

My mom passed when I was (9) and never progressed the grief. Also I’ve been suspending that I have autism for a long time I also have done a lot of research on ADHD and autism for (6) years now and I think I have both (ADHD/autism). I have special interests in boy bands, k-pop, anime,drawing,singing, music, stuffed animals I collected rocks at one point I love taking pictures of the sky and landscapes. I am (21f) and I always had sensory issues with loud noises, washing dishes, food textures,smells, touch etc.

This is a genuine question and I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this to understand myself more because those exact words were said to me by the person who was assessing me. I am (22f) and I got assessed when I was (21) so if anyone has any advice please feel free to share. Thank you.

Ever since I was a kid I always felt different in school settings and at home. When it came to school I was always picked on all the time from grade school up to high school and I was the quiet kid and when I did speak about some of my special interests or if I showed them to classmates I got laughed at, everyone in my middle school in my grade hated me and I didn’t know why, middle school was the worse and most of my memories of constant bullying came from middle school. I always needed extra help in class especially in subjects like Reading and Math. When I wasn’t in school I was at home and that wasn’t good either I was always on edge at home and in school I have been manipulated, gaslighted, emotionally neglected, deprived of physical touch and words of affirmation, very low self esteem/confidence.

My mom passed when I was (9) and never progressed the grief. Also I’ve been suspending that I have autism for a long time I also have done a lot of research on ADHD and autism for (6) years now and I think I have both (ADHD/autism). I have special interests in boy bands, k-pop, anime,drawing,singing, music, stuffed animals I collected rocks at one point I love taking pictures of the sky and landscapes. I am (21f) and I always had sensory issues with loud noises, washing dishes, food textures,smells, touch etc.

Ever since I was a kid I always felt different in school settings and at home. When it came to school I was always picked on all the time from grade school up to high school and I was the quiet kid and when I did speak about some of my special interests or if I showed them to classmates I got laughed at, everyone in my middle school in my grade hated me and I didn’t know why, middle school was the worse and most of my memories of constant bullying came from middle school. I always needed extra help in class especially in subjects like Reading and Math. When I wasn’t in school I was at home and that wasn’t good either I was always on edge at home and in school I have been manipulated, gaslighted, emotionally neglected, deprived of physical touch and words of affirmation, very low self esteem/confidence.

My mom passed when I was (9) and never progressed the grief. Also I’ve been suspending that I have autism for a long time I also have done a lot of research on ADHD and autism for (6) years now and I think I have both (ADHD/autism). I have special interests in boy bands, k-pop, anime,drawing,singing, music, stuffed animals I collected rocks at one point I love taking pictures of the sky and landscapes. I am (21f) and I always had sensory issues with loud noises, washing dishes, food textures,smells, touch etc.

As someone who’s been struggling my whole life with school,home and other things I suspect I might have autism and ADHD. I lost my mom at a young age then I moved with my dad and stepmom and I have childhood trauma, random pains throughout my body since adolescence,I have C-ptsd, anxiety/depression I’m taking meds for it, I been outcasted in school/bullied for no reason for as long as I could remember and I was always failing in school, I was terrified of my parents and still am a little bit also didn’t like school and I hated being at home. I’m 21 black female and I just want advice.