u/nocturnmun

// minor brand new day spoilers

This is going to sound so cheesy, but as a man who has loved spiderman his whole life, the new movie really spoke to me in ways I didn't know a superhero movie could... or was allowed to really.

The headaches, the joint paint, the changing of the body, and monitoring hormone levels while trying to suppress the parts of you that don't 'fit'... yeah it hit really hard. The movie was an emotional rollercoaster for me and it more than ever solidified the man I want to become, especially since Peter is my age in the new movie (22, I think).

It makes me want to take the leap of faith and start, regardless of what could go wrong or who I lose along the way. Aunt May's speech really resonated with me.

I'll starting transitioning medically soon, the social part is taken care of. Thank you spiderman 🙂‍↕️

I'm a trans guy but I haven't transitioned, so I look like and am treated as a woman. This has been horrible for me. The store I work at primarily has older staff members, around 35-60, but there are a few of us in the younger range, but I'm the oldest of the young people at 22. I've been at the job for about 13 weeks now, and at first everything was going ok... then it wasn't.

It seems that after introducing themselves to you, a lot of men (primarily older men) take it upon themselves to make you the most uncomfortable you've ever been. They tend to be in the 60+ range, so literally my dad's age, and I have to deal with a large amount of them on Tuesday's due to the pensioner discount we do. I feel so gross.

There's the normal comments about forcing me to smile, saying I'm a pretty girl and to give him a smile (which still creep me out icl)... but then there's the others. I don't want to repeat what they said, but they make me feel physically disgusting, and if I don't smile and nod they throw their cash at me and glare until I give them the change. I never knew the prevalence of this until I found out that a girl I'm in the same school year as (so she's 21) told me that she has nervous breakdowns if asked to go on registers for the same reason. Like full on crying. I feel horrible, but I'd rather bear the brunt than make a girl go on tills and face the harassment.

This doesn't go for all 60+ men, a lot of them are very kind and respectful, but the few that aren't unfortunately outweigh the positives.

I've asked my manager to change as many of my register shifts to stock shifts to avoid customers, since I don't think my mental state can take it for much longer, but I'll do it if I have to.

I'm going to go on a bit of a rant, so I apologise for that. I've been experiencing a lot of transphobia over the past few days after opening up about my transition goals. I'm starting testosterone soon, and I've been really excited to share my goals and what I'm going to do to make them a reality (my meal plans, work outs etc)— but I've been met with a surprising amount of hostility?

I want to be a twink.

I want to be a lean, athletic twink with shoulder length blonde hair (maybe a bit longer) and no body hair. These are all attainable things even on testosterone, and there is no reason why it wouldn't be attainable in the first place considering how many cis men are twinks. But trans men don't like that for some reason? I keep getting told that I should be prepared to be hairy and fat, but with a routine and calorie deficit that's all avoidable? why do trans men struggle with the idea that not everyone wants to be traditionally masculine? why have I had trans men tell me that my testosterone should go to them instead? Why have I been getting called a 'trans man' in quotes, which completely negates my journey of almost a decade to get to this point in my transition? I just can't fathom why wanting to be feminine is viewed as a moral failing as a trans man, and why I'm getting told that I'm not actually trans because of it. It doesn't help that this rhetoric is so heavily spread, it just feels transphobic? but how can it be if it's trans men saying it?

Idk if I'm making sense, I just feel really hurt by these comments because it took a long time for me to learn that my transition was a personal goal, not determined by whether others saw me as a man or not, and that what ultimately mattered is what I wanted to look like and not what society viewed me as. It just sucks to see so much internalised misogyny in trans men.

So I didn't have a job when the other-studio nsfw figures first dropped, however now the preorder period is over I can't find them ANYWHERE, for resale or otherwise. I really want at least one of them, I'm not picky, but I genuinely don't know how to get my hands on them 💔 does anyone have any sites that might have them? Mercari japan hasn't got any, nor has any Japanese store supported by buyee. I'm in the uk but I would buy from the US if I have to... I'm just really desperate 💔